Accident

Chapter 50

I know he doesn't mean all those things. He's just mad and frustrated, but it still hits hard.

My heart attaches and I listen to his speech about how I am not the only one here who misses there family.

But its not the same he still has family. Mine is dead.

"STOP FELIX! Its enough!", Minho yells angry and hits the table.

Lix shuts up and just stares at us all.

I gulp.

Jeongin lays a hand on my back softly to comfort me.

"See, don't touch my girl!", Lix points at Jeongin's hand.

"Is she your girl?

I don't think someone would treat their girlfriend like this. Yell at them about being selfish, when he know that she lost all she loved.

I don't think so that a boyfriend doesn't call her girlfriend for almost two weeks and doesn't even read her massages.

Are you really her boyfriend?

I don't think so.

Boyfriends are supposed to support their girlfriends love them in the deepest times and stick by their side.

I don't think you did anything of that. You always saying you don't want to lose her another time, but I think you are just losing her right now", Seungmin says and stares int Lix's eyes.

I look at him and see that they are now filled with guilt and sadness.

But he cant change the words he said to me just a few minutes ago.

I smile sadly and get up from my chair.

"Where are you going Sisi?", Channie oppa asks worried.

I walk some steps behind and bow deep, to apologize.

"I want to apologize for the trouble I costed you all. I didn't know about anything of these things.

I really hope you can forgive me and accept my apologize.

I really didn't want to be selfish and come to you guys with my problems, its just that I was close to you all  and..and you are truly are a part of my family.

I really don't want that your group fight, so i won't bother anyone of you anymore. I will go to Jyp tomorrow and ask him if he could change the producer to him and me.

So that Han, Changbin and Chan won't have to deal with us anymore.

I will tell the unnies that we should ask twice unnies or Got7 oppas when we need help, so that you can all focus on your own work.

Thank you for your time and all those amazing memories we made", I bow another time and I can feel some tears rolling down my cheek.

I wish them away and start to walk to the door.

"Sisi, wait no I didn't mean it like this", Lix yells.

And I can see them all looking at me, because its an open room.

"I know, but you said it.... You know I never told you, but the reason of my parents and my sister coming to Korea was because Somi wanted to debut as an idol.

And because they knew you were in Korea. They didn't know where, but your mother told them in Seoul.

So they came to visit you.

They're third son they never had. The boy they loved with their hole heart", I grab my purse and take out a letter.

"Its for you. I should have gave it to you, when we saw each other again for the first time, but I didn't so here you go.

They saved it for you. Do what ever you want with it. I guess its money, but I don't know", I say and lay the letter on the ground.

I open the door and leave the dorm of Stray kids.

A part of my family,

a part of home.