Accident

Chapter 32

I take my phone with shaking hands. Its eleven pm. My mind is still circling in the past and I start to sob. It hurts so much.

My body feels weak and my tears flow down my cheeks. "Eomma, Appa wae?!", I wisper shout.

"Why did you leave me", I sob and my body collapse back onto the bed. "Unnie-ahh! My heart hurts so much. Why did you leave me?", I cry.

"You couldn't live enough long so I made your dream come true", I sob. I know she isn't here anymore, but it feels good to let it all out.

"Eomma its so hard", I whisper. "So hard...", my tears are all flowing into the cushion. "Life is so hard without you", I cry out.

My chest starts to hurt from all the sobbing and crying, but I cant stop.

I hear steps near me and someone open the door. But I cant stop crying. The person pulls me into a hug and then lifts me up.

I flinch "Its okay. Its me Jeongin. The others are still live", he rubs my back. "Let me pull you hoodie top on and you can come with me into the living room. The cameras are only at one half of the living room, so you can sit on the other half", he pulls my hoodie up (more like Lix's but never mind).

He hands me one of his arms and we walk out of the room.

I stoped sobbing after Jeongin pulled me into a hug.

Jeongin helps me to sit on a couch and hands me a blanket. He wipes my tears away and smiles at me cutely.

He then goes back to the others. Channie Oppa, Hyunjin noticed me and Hyunjin looks at me with concerned.

I look away and stare on the ground.

After some while I look up again. My breathing got normal again and I look at them joking around.

I still feel like crying, but not so much anymore. My eyes meets Lix's and he frowns. "I will get something to drink", he tells stays and gets up.

He walks to me and kneels next to me. His eyes tells me he is really worried. He pulls me into his chest and I let out a tiny sob.

He caresses my hair and kisses my hair. "Its okay. Did you dream about it again?", Lix whispers and I nod.

He knows about this dream. Silas told him about it and also about my anxiety from dark rooms and tattoos.

He hugs me even deeper and he lays his head on my head. After about two minutes he lets go off me and cups my cheeks.

"We are ending in about fifteen minutes. After that we can go to sleep okay?", he smiles warmly at me and I nod at him.

He kisses my cheek and goes back to the others.

"The new girls group from Jyp is so pretty", Seungmin reads a comment. "Yeah. They are all pretty", Changbin says and looks at me.

I smile at him weekly and he grins. "The maknae is two years younger than our makae", Han points out and Jeongin nods excited.

"I think my bias is Sisi", Hyunjin reads and I blush. I know they are obviously trying to light up my mood.

"You all should Stan them. Some of there music will be produced my 3racha and some by them self. I was so lucky to hear Sisi sing one of her song.

It was really good and she has that really pretty and soft voice. Please treat her well", Channie oppa says to stays.

The others nod and some of them look at me. "With wich member of TNW did you have the most contact?", Hyunjin reads and out an other comment.

"So I think we all have the most contact with Sisi", Changbin oppa answers. "She's really sweet and one of us already known her since our childhood", Jeongin says smiling happy.

"Who is it?", Channie oppa reads a comment. "Lets not tell stays and let them guess", Hyunjin says teasing.

"Thats not fair. We don't want to make stays angry", Jeongin pouts and looks at Hyunjin.

"You need to except her private live Jeongin", Channie oppa says like a father.

Lix suddenly stands up and all the members look at him. He doesn't bother and walk to me again.

He checks my face and then smiles. "Your eyes are not red anymore", he whispers and I nod smiling a little.

"How often do you see the others?", Seungmin reads a comment. "So...", he looks at all the members and then at me and Lix. "Actually one of the member is at our dorm right now", Seungmin says.

My eyes widen and I look at Lix.

He pats my head. "You want to see her?", Jeongin says like an excited kid. "Let me get her", he jumps up and jumps to me.

He looks at Lix then me and then again at Lix. "Do you want to say hi to stays?", he asks excited. I look at Lix and he nods softly.

I shrug and stand up. Jeongin takes my hand and pulls me up from the couch. I almost trip, but Lix caught me.

"Go slow", he tells Jeongin and he nods.

He pulls me in front of the camera and I can see Lix siting down.

Next to Jeongin. Jeongin pulls me down next to Hyunjin and Lix. I look into the camera and bow slightly.

"Hello my name is Sisi. Im from Jyp's new girl group TNW", the boys cheer for me and I smile shyly.

The boys start to talk again and I don't know if I should leave or stay.

Suddenly someone pulls my hoodie down and reveals my bare face.

I quickly cover it with my hands and look down.

"What are you doing? You look pretty", Hyunjin smiles and pulls my hand away.

"Dont do that. My face is swollen", I pout and he laughs. "No its not. Its really pretty", he turns my body to Lix.

"Isn't she pretty?", he asks Lix. "No, she's gorgeous", Lix winks and I start to blush. "Hey, hey stop it! Your breaking her", Minho yells at Lix and Hyunjin.