Accident

chapter 56

I come back to my sense and look at him. I see the love and adoration in his eyes, but I am not sure about this all. He did hurt me so many times already.

I pull out of his arms and look on to the ground.

"Maybe we already fell too hard, to be fixed again", I say and with those words my heart break into million peaces.

I love him so much, but I don't know how I am going to trust him again. He already left me so many times, how do I know he won't do it this time.

"No...no we didnt. I love you baby. You are my everything, please give us one more chance. We can do it, I know we can", he bags and I look away from his face.

"I am so sorry, for what I did. My emotions were playing a game with me and I lost my temper, but I love you. I don't know how I am supposed to live without you. I miss your hugs, your kisses, your love. I miss you. Please don't give up on us. I will do everything to make it up to you", he whines and takes my hand.

I look at him and take my hand out of his.

"I...I just don't know how I can trust you anymore", I say and some tears flow down my cheeks. I turn around, so he won't see my them.

"Please...", I can hear Felix tearing up and it breaks my heart.

I turn around and see him kneeing on the ground crying in his arms. "Dont cry please. It breaks my heart", I say he continues to cry and I look at him while also crying.

"Maybe... it just wasnt the right time.... to be lovers. But I will always love you", I sob and and look at him.

"Please give us one last chance", Felix cries and I shake my head.

"I am not ready yet, to give you all of me. One day I will be ready again, just not right now", I say and he nods. His eyes are puffy and red.

"I will wait until that day for you...", his voice creaks and he cries even more.

I turn around and leave the studio. I close the door and break down. My tears start to flow down my face like a waterfall and I just cant stop crying.

"Sisi!", I hear someone pulling me into there arms and I just cry in them. I let out all the tears I held in, all the pain and all the stress I felt.

The person rubs my back.

After some time I finish with crying and look at the person. "Hey, hey. Your okay?", Jeongin asks me and I shake my head.

"Jeongin", I sob and he pulls me into his arms again.

"Jeongin I love him so much, but I don't if I can trust him", I cry.

"I know you love him. We all know. You will be able to love him again. Just wait until the time comes, where you meant to be together"

He lets me cry on his shoulder. After some minutes I hear some foot steps.

I get pulled into other arms and I whine like a child. "Its okay. Its me Chan", I hear Channie oppa say and look at him.

"Felix-", my voice creaks and he nods. "Where is he?", he asks me softly and I point at the studio. He squishes me tight one time and then leave me to go into the studio.

"You will okay. I promise to take care after you, like an older brother", Jeongin says and hugs me. I hide my face into his shirt and slowly drift away from tiredness.

I wake up from someone shaking me. "Sisi, wake up. We have to leave", I open my eyes and they burn like hell. I see Jennie unnie looking at me with a worried face and I just look past her.

"Lets go", I say and get up. I walk past her and we both get into the van. Jennie unnie takes my hand and squishes it softly. She organizes my hair and makes it look like normal again.

She hands me a basket head and some sunglasses.

We drive to the airport and Simon helps us to get everything done.

Soon we are inside of the airplane and I rest my head on the seat. I close my eyes and fall back to sleep.