Accident

Chapter 42

"So we are going to ask you some question or show you some clips and you will comment or react okay?", the director explains to me. I nod and she starts.

Could you please introduce yourself?

"Hello, my name is Park Sisi and im from the Korean girl group TNW", I say and wave to the camera

How come you can speak Chinese?

"My mother was Chinese Korea, so I learned it both"

Did you enjoy this show?

"Yes, very much. I think it was really nice to spend time with the kids and I really loved to practice my Chinese a bit.

I think this show shows more of my normal life. Its like I can be myself and don't need to be an idol. I hope people can see me in a other way and not only as an idol from TNW", I smile and the producer nods.

So today is your last day and you will leave early

"Yes Im a little sad, that I cant stay until the end but work calls"

They show me some clips from the past thirteen days and I smile. I give my comments and then they let me go back to the others.

I spend the day with all of them and its so relaxing here. I actually don't want to leave here its so peaceful and no stress.

I lean my head on Lucas shoulder and close my eyes.

"By the way. Happy birthday", he says to me and I open my eyes to smile at him. "Thanks, how did you know?", I ask him.

"One of my members is a Stan of your group so he told me", he grins and I laugh. "A nct member stans my group", I squeal like a fan girl. "Mhm", he winks and I pretend to have a heart attack.

"Can you play with me?", Lilly comes up to me. "Sure, what do you want to do sweetie?", I ask her and she takes my hand.

She pulls me with her to the other kids. "We want to play hide and seek", a little boy says pouting. "Ah, you want me to count?", I ask them and they nod excited. "Okay, I will count to twenty and then you have to hide okay?", I start to count.

We play this game for the third time now. I found the most kids now I was searching for Lilly. I sneak around the corner and see her hiding her face in her hands sitting on the floor giggling.

I look at her and smile at her cuteness. "Found you", I take her hands off her eyes and she starts to scream with joy.

I hug her and spin her around. The other kids come to me and I lay on the ground.

They all jump on me and start to hug me. I laugh and we cuddle like this for a while.

"Food is ready, wash your hands!", Yichen yells from the kitchen. I get up and take the kids with me to wash our hands.

We quickly go to the dining table and walk into the kitchen to help Jackson. I take the food and bring them on the table.

Lucas takes the rest and we all sit down. I put some food for the kids and they start to eat.

I watch them eat and smile. This will be the last time we are siting together and eat. Its going to be hard to say goodbye to them.

Especially from the kids and Yichen. I probably won't see them again that soon. Like Jackson and Lucas will also attend the next award show. Im really excited for that. But the rest I won't see.

"Sisi eat, the food is getting cold", Jackson tells me and I take some chopsticks. I start to eat.

"You really don't eat a lot", Yichen tells me while we are cleaning the dish. "I used to eat a lot. But it stopped, when I started to join Jyp entertainment", I tell him honestly.

I totally forgot about the cameras. "So they made you diet?", Yichen asked shocked. "Yeah. So not Jyp him self, but one of the staffs", I say and sit on the counter.

"A staff? But I thought the head makes the decisions?", Yichen sounds confused. "Normally yes. But Jyp had no idea what was going on so you cant blame him. One of the staffs made me run for hours to lose weight. He reduced my food, so I would loose weight in a short time. But don't get me wrong. The staff didn't mean to hurt me. He wanted me to fail, so I won't suffer the idol life, at least that's what he said", I shrug and smile at my lap.

"That sounds...not very nice", he says honest. "It isn't, but his soul was nice", I say and can see he's looking at my body.

"I know this is not polite to ask, but how much do you weight?", he asks. "Oh its okay. So I weight around 41kg?", I say. "How much weight did you loose?", he asked shocked from my weight. "I think it was 58kg so I lost 17kg", his eyes widen and takes my face in his hands.

"How? Do you have health problems?", he asked and starts to check up on me. I laugh and push his hands away.

"No, I used to faint and be weak when I was on died, but Im no longer so Im fines, don't worry", I smile and he sigh.

"This is really dangerous", he tells me serious. "Im still alive, so I guess it wasnt that bed", I jump off the counter. "Your really so strong", he ruffles my hair. "Thats why you like me", I say smiling and he nods.

We walk out of the kitchen and search for the others. They are in the garden watching a snail. "Lets go and take a nap", Lucas tells them all.

They slowly walk in and I hug two of them. I take them up and lay them in bed. I tell them I have to leave early and that I have to say goodbye now.

They hug me and say goodbye. I walk in the next room and they hug me to. The last room is the room of the smallest ones.

Its the one of Lilly and a little boy named Lino. He's already asleep and I stroke his hair, before kissing his head. I turn to Lillys bed and see her looking at me.

"Hey little one. I have to leave early, because I have some work to do", I tell her and she looks at me sad.

"Hey, hey don't be sad. We will see each other again", she pouts and I hug her. She puts her little arms around my neck and hugs me tight.

"Im going to miss you", she tells me with the cutest voice ever. "Aww, I will miss you to", I give her a kiss on the cheek and hug her until she falls asleep.

I then lay her onto the bed and sneak out of the room.