Accident

Chapter 38

"Really?!"

Lix looks in my face and searches for a sign that Im lying.

"I love you for real", I blush and he pecks my lips three times.

I lean my head on his shoulder and hug him.

"I thought I lost you...", I hug him really tight and I can feel that his body stiffs up.

"Im sorry baby. I thought you didn't like me back. I was an asshole. I should never had ignored you. Not after everything you have been through", he whispers in my ear.

"Its okay. At least you are here now", I put my face deeper in his neck and breath the smell of him.

I slightly press my lips against his neck and his body shivers.

"Lix?", I ask after ten minutes of us just hugging and enjoying the presence of each other.

"Hm?", he answers me. "What do we do about the agency? Im not allowed to date, neither you. I just debuted and your group is gaining so much popularity at the moment. What if they catch us?", I ask him worried and he takes my hand in his hands.

He stars into my eyes and peeks my lips before he starts to talk.

"I lost you two times because of my idol life and my dreams. But I cant lose you anymore. You are my life and my fate for everything that is coming up in the future. Im not going to give you away anymore. Even if that means I have to give up my idol life", he tells me serious.

I pout at his touching words and kiss his cheeks.

"Lets make a promise to stay by each others side until the death kills us", Lix says and we make a pinky promise.

We hear a knock on the door and Lix slightly moves away from me.

"Yes?", he asks and the door get pushed open.

"Hey, are you okay?", Jimin unnie comes to me and I nod. "We actually have to go back, but only if your sure your okay", she tells me and I try push my self up from the chair.

As soon as I stand up my knees start to shake. Lix holds my arm and looks worried at me.

"I think it would be better if you stayed here and-", I cut him off. "Im fine. Its my first award show I don't want to miss everything", I tell him and look at Jimin unnie.

She looks unsure, but nods.

She start to walk back, when we see Simon (manager) he looks at us and rushes to me.

"Are you okay?", he asks worried. "Yeah, Im fine. I want to see the rest of the award show", I tell him and he nods.

Then his face turns to Lix who's helping me to walk.

"I can take here, go back to your group. Your group will be nominated", Simon takes my arm.

"No its fine, I will go to them when I made sure Sisi is at her seat", he tells Simon with a smile, but I can see that he doesn't mean it.

"Lix, you should go to the others. Im okay. Jimin unnie is with me", I say and he looks at me. I can see, that he's jealous , but he nods and leaves.

Simon brings me to my seat and my unnies put me in the middle.

Momo unnie puts a duvet to cover over my knees. "Are you fine? Please don't lie", she whispers. "Im fine. Im just a little dizzy and really tired", I whisper back and she nods.

"Oh our maknae is tired", Jennie unnie joins our conversation. "Let her be. Its a hard day a specially for her", Jimin unnie scolds the unnies.

"Excuse us, but is it possible if you guys move a little more to the right? Some groups ar going to get reseated", a staff asks us and the unnie all move two seats to the right.

Leaving me at the edge of the left side.

"Why are you all moving away?", I ask them. "Its going to be awkward, so I don't want to sit next to strangers", Momo unnie explains.

"Yeah, she's right", Jennie unnie giggles. "What about me?", I ask them and they shrug. "Your social skills are good. You can do it fighting", Jennie unnie sheers and Momo unnie start to laugh.

"Aish you guys are annoying", I tell them pretend that im mad. "Aww don't be mad. Your unnies love you", Momo unnie ruffles my hair.

"Don't touch my hair", I try to shake her hand off. "Stop it! Behave", Jimin unnie whisper shouts at Momo unnie and hand her something to eat. "Eat this and stop bothering our maknae", she tells her and hands me some food.

I take it, but put it on the ground. Im not really hungry. Like Im not interested in eating anymore. I think these past month changed me.

The stress and the lake of sleep made me different. I don't really eat anymore and I didn't get my Period for three months now.

At the moment no one is at the stage and we are having a short break. So Sana unnie decided to get food.

All of my unnies are eating, I look around the arena. Some fans are still inside, the most of them are gone.

"SISI", I hear a group of people shout and turn my head around. I see around seven people standing there. Four boys and three girls.

I wave at them smiling and was about to turn around, when one of the boys catch my eyes. I look back and...

I run in that direction.

The guy smiles and I try to go the nearest to him as I can. Unfortunately he's on the second level, so I wasnt able to get nearer.

"What the hell are you doing here?", I ask him as loud as possible, so that he can hear me.

"Watching my sister perform", he yells back proudly.

I smile and turn around and search for Simon.

I wave him next to me and he comes. "Hey, can you get him down?" I ask Simon and point at my brother Silas. 

He nods and disappears with a security man.

After some minutes he comes back with Silas. I run up and jump into his arms.

"SILAS", I shout happy. He laughs and hugs me tight.

"Your here", I jump excited. "I missed YOU", I take his face in my hand.

"Are you okay? How is school? Are they your friends?", I bombard him with questions.

"Chill down. I missed you too, so much. I wanted to meat you sooner, but I was really busy with school.
Im fine. I just really wanted to see you. School is good, but kind of exhausting. Yes these are my friends. There really nice. If you have time someday I will introduce you to them", he smiles and answers all my questions.