Accident

chapter 59

"Hi Tinys!", I yell happy into the crowded stadium. I scrunch my nose and make my face really cute.

"Before you say something, me, your unnies and Tinys have a small surprise for you", Jimin unnie tells me and I look at her interested.

The stadium suddenly gets dark and the light sticks of our fandom change the color into purple. I look at the crowd of all our fans and smile bright. Suddenly they all start to sing happy birthday and my eyes widen.

They finish and all cheer. "For me?", I pout in a cute baby voice. I turn to my unnie and they all smile at me.

"We wanted to tell you, that you are so strong.

In this four years we spend together now you have gone through so much, but still your here.

Happy and stronger, then you have ever been.

Your unnies want to thank you for your motivating vibes you always share with us and those amazing lyrics you always write. You are an inspiration for so many young people out there.

And I just cant believe you are twenty already. You were so tiny, when I first met you and now. Look at you, all grown up and sometimes even wiser than all of us.

We know life is not always easy, but I hope you know we will always be by your side", Sana unnie lets so tears out and I go to hug her.

I hug all of my unnies and then look at the crowd.

"Thank you so much. Truly, Tiny I am so thankful to call you my fanbase. Your so respectful and so nice to me.

You guys really saved me from the edge. I don't think I would have lived this long without you all. You gave me hope, that life is not only bad and that if we really want something we have to fight for it.

I remember back, two years ago I had to go on hiatus, because of my mental health. I was really broken at that time, but you all waited for me to come back. At that moment I knew.

It doesn't matter, what happened in the past, or what will happen in the future. Because if you don't enjoy now. Your future won't be brighter and your past won't get better. The only thing we can do is let go of the past and be in the now.

And I am. I am in the now and here and I am healthy and that's all because of you Tiny.

So remember if your not doing okay.

Its okay.

Its okay to cry and let out the emotions. You just have to remember, that after you cried you have to let go.

Because its the past and we cant change anything about it.

Of course we can think about it, but only about the happy times. Not the bad. Bad memories are here to delete and not be played again.

We learn of mistakes and become stronger and wiser. So don't be afraid to do something wrong.

And the most important. Dont hurt yourself. Its never a solution. Remember, I am always here for you. My unnies are always here for you. If you are really in a bad condition and want to talk to someone.

Come to me.

Come to TNW.

We are all human and need love. So I will never mind cheering Tinys up", I say and bow at the crowd.

Some tears flow down my face, but they are not sad tears.

They are happy tears.

Tears of joy.