To Win My Heart (Salvatore Series #1)

Chapter 27

Chapter 27

"You were making out with a fucking stranger last night and you were drunk! What do you want me to do then? Letting him take advantage of your drunkness?!"

Habol habol niya ang hininga niya dahil sa sunod sunod na sigaw niya habang mariin na nakatitig sa akin. His jaw was clenching and I don't know why it made me nervous but I tried to act serious.

"Ano naman ngayon? Anong pakialam mo sa kung anong gagawin, ha?!" I yelled back kahit sa totoo lang ay nakaramdam rin ako ng takot na baka nga kung hindi siya dumating ay may ginawa nang masama ang lalaking 'yon sa akin.

"Are you fucking serious? Do you think I'll let that happen, Amaria?! Not because you don't have a boyfriend doesn't mean you are allowed to kiss any guy! Damn it!" he turned his back at me and kicked his bedside table.

My eyes widened.

He faced me again with burning anger in his eyes. "You don't know how I fucking stopped myself to be in your life again but I don't think I can still stop myself from it. Damn! I still love you and it fucking hurt me seeing you being kissed by any guy that is not me!"

Nalaglag ang panga ko at napatulala sa kan'ya dahil sa diretsahan niyang sinabi. Parang napatigil ako sa paghinga habang iniintindi ang sinabi niya. My heart even beats so fast as he mentioned those words!

His eyes were bloodshot as he stared at me with love, longing, pain and regrets in his eyes. Nanatili akong tahimik at gulat na gulat pa rin sa sinabi niya.

Mas lalo lang akong hindi makagalaw nang mabilis siyang lumapit sa akin at naramdaman ko na lang ang pintuan ng banyo na dumikit sa likuran ko. My eyes widened when he kissed me on my lips! Sa gulat ko ay malakas ko siyang naitulak at agad naman siyang nadala na muntik pa niyang ikinatumba. Napasinghap ako.

He looks so shocked because of what I did.

I glared at him. "Why did you fucking kissed me?!" hindi ko mapigilang sumigaw sa galit na nararamdaman.

Galit dahil nagre-react pa rin ang putanginang puso ko sa lalaking 'to!

Mukhang gulat pa rin siya sa pagtulak ko at sa nagawa niya. "I... I'm sorry... I was just-"

"Putangina naman, Haed! Hindi mo na kailangang sabihin pa na mahal mo pa rin ako dahil wala na akong pakialam! Hindi na kita mahal! My trauma from what happened in the past is still here! Putangina, takot na nga akong magmahal o makipag-kaibigan ulit dahil natatakot akong mangyari ulit ang nangyari noon!" hindi ko mapigilan ang luha kong tumulo.

My hands were shaking. I knew it wasn't him nor Sam's fault because they were also the victim but I can't help it. Natatakot akong masaktan ulit. Natatakot akong mangyari ulit 'yong nangyari noon. Kahit ang pakikipag-kaibigan ay hindi ko na magawa sa takot.

"Amaria, I'm sorry. Please give me a chance to make everything right again, baby. I promise I will do my best for you-"

"Stop it-"

"I won't stop until you love me back, Amaria-"

"Bullshit!" napahilamos ako sa sariling mukha gamit ang mga palad ko.

Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. I'm not fool not to feel it. I knew I still love him at alam kong hindi nawawala ang pagmamahal ko para sa kan'ya. My heart wanted to give him a chance but my mind said no. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang dapat kong sundin sa dalawa.

"I'll do everything to win your heart again."

Tuluyan na akong nanghina lalo na at lumapit ulit siya sa akin. Sobrang sikip ng dibdib ko at halos hindi ako makahinga ng maayos. He took my both hands on my face and squeezed it. He wiped my tears using his thumb.