Wild Baleigh love 2️⃣☑️

46. Why am I here?

Ballice's pov

Four months later

The greatest fear that I've been living with in the past months is the 'what if' type of fear.

What if Kellane can't really remember me at all?

What if she'll never wake up at all?

What if she'll never forgive me for the pain I caused her if she does wake up?

And what if...

It's always the what ifs... What if...what if... Am tired of overthinking but I can't help it.

My father forced me to go to school even though he knew very well there's nothing much I'll gain because my mind will always be in the hospital, totally preoccupied. But I couldn't argue, I obliged.

So it's been a norm. After school I come directly to the hospital, then I wake up in the morning to go wash myself up and go to school if I have any morning classes.

Sometimes I don't have classes at all so I spend my time in the hospital literally doing nothing than watching her frail frame connected with plastic tubes. The doctors said that her rib is healed together with the broken bones. And we couldn't be any more relived.

"Hey bro. I think we have to leave now." Jelton stands up.

My friends came to see her. They always make time to come see her and am grateful for that. Am grateful for their consistent company and care.

"She'll wake up. Just don't give up. I know my babydoll, she's a bombass strong woman." Morgan smiles sadly as he turns to look at her. "I miss her." His voice breaks and he almost runs as he walks out.

"Look I think we all feel the same, I should leave before I breakdown too." Nard jokes and that lightens our mood as we all chuckle. "Bro am done with highschool now, once Tleigh wakes up, I'll force her to join our band again and it's going to be one legit band in Hudson."

This guy knows how to steer our minds away from the situation at hand.

"Thanks for coming." I smile at them and stand to give them a bro hug.

They all leave except Dubel. "Bro?" I raise an eyebrow at him.

"Uhmmm... I don't know what to say." He scratches the back of his head.

I chuckle at his discomfort. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing really." He chuckles too. "It's just that am worried for Tiffany. She's going mad. She cries everyday she comes back from the hospital. I don't know how to help her. I heard of the same from Jelton, Camilla is also affected in the same way." He sighs.

I don't know what to say so I just remain quiet.
Suddenly an idea pops in my head.

"What if they come tonight and be with her? They need closure and some faith. I know she'll be okay and so they should have the same hope too." I look at him waiting for an answer.

"I think you're right about that. I'll tell Tiffany." He stands up. "I'm really sorry, I know this is hard for you way much but we are all praying for her." I nod. He then pats my shoulder lightly and leaves.

My phone disrupts me from my thoughts. I check to find that it's my mom calling.

"Hello Mom."

"How're you Ballice?" Her voice booms from the speakers.

"I'm... good I guess?"

She snorts. "I shouldn't have asked that stupid question. Anyway, your birthday is coming up. You do know that?"