Wild Baleigh love 2️⃣☑️

42. Dying a thousand deaths.

Tleigh's pov.

I speed down the Brooklyn subway from Hudson letting all the adrenaline rush engulf me as this is my first time in so long, I'm using my motorcycle. I really missed this baby but this time I'll have to not focus on how I missed it and focus more on how I'm going to break these news to him.

I don't know how I ended up agreeing with Cassandra's plea. She really wanted me to tell Ballice that I'm having his baby like in what that? Six months time? Or is it five?

That's insane. He's going to freak out I swear.

Everyone had already left when I got home this morning except for Zila of course. I really want to tell my dad but I can't stand the broken look that will form on his face, it'll be more of a disappointment look infact.

I don't know how to do this, I really don't. More reason to why I'll have to shut Odessa's threats off and focus on myself this one time. And my baby.

I'm not certain on how Ballice will take these news but I'm willing to risk and know what to do thereafter.

My heart starts pounding as I get closer and closer to his school. When I finally get to the address Cassandra gave me, I stop my motorcycle against the gate I assume is for their apartment and take my phone out to call Cassandra.

After three rings she picks up.

"Have you gotten there dear?" Her voice comes through.

"Yeah, and are you sure it's Louis apartment B?" I ask for confirmation to avoid embarrassing myself.

"Very sure, there's no other Louis apartment B I guess. Make sure you go to the third floor, door number 3e."

"Sure, thanks." I sigh heavily. "I'm going to do this." I say more to myself, for psyche.

"Don't worry honey, he's a good person and he always has that soft spot for you. It won't be that bad." Her soft words have a soothing effect and even when I park my motorbike outside that gate, I move to the security officer at the gate confidently.

"Yes miss, how may I help you?" He asks politely.

"I'm here for Ballice Mendel please." I say and he shows me where to sign and I scribble quickly before I turn to look at the unfamiliar building. It oozes off poshness. The Ballice I know wouldn't go for less.

As I walk towards the mass of stairs, I think I hear a lady that was sitting at the gate inside that security office muttering something along the lines, 'It's weird. The guy barely has visitors and today he has two and both are Fe..." I close off their talk as I run up taking two stairs each step.

Heart please go soft on me. I'm carrying the photos I printed after getting scanned yesterday. This is for more evidence Incase he doesn't believe me or Incase he goes all caveman on me.

After covering the first floor stairs I take a break on top of the stairs panting heavily. I'm really getting fat.

I sit on the base of the stairs leading to the second floor and as if on reflex my hand goes to my stomach. I have a very small bump, infact it's barely there but I can feel it. I don't know how stupid I were to not notice it. I thought I was having baby fats and I was too lazy to workout.

As my hand smooths under my cropped hoodie, I found myself singing I_got_you , Ciara softly.

I had taken a video singing the same song when I was in my room this morning before I got Cassandra's call. I don't know why I did that, maybe I just wanted to accept the obvious fact that I'm really going to be a mom, so typical. In that video I was wearing my tightest dress showing my small bump and I was caressing one palm over it and the other was holding my phone as I took a mirror video.