One Million Tiny Things

Baby

Baby,
I miss you. I miss you so much that it hurts. I knew this was coming, everyone knows. That's why you don't date people older than you. Heck even the school system knows that, that's why we never have lunch period together.

But how? How can I not love you when you're so gorgeous? I fell for you the second I saw you're adorable face outside my window in fourth grade although it took me five years to admit it. But now all I see are your drawn blinds. And I miss you so much it hurts.

How's college? Sara says that college girls are prettier and confident and that I better watch my back. But I won't loose you, will I? You have nothing to worry about, everyone else looks pimply and disgusting compared to you.

Are you coming home for Thanksgiving? Please come. I can't do this. I need you. It is so hard you know. You've got this whole new world but I'm still living on the same one as before just without its most important element. Imagine the earth without the sun, that's how I feel most days.

I thought I'd have nothing to write. We call every night afterall right. Ha! An IM from you just popped up, see what I'm talking about.

I won't tell you yet though because I wanted this to be a surprise, kay? I'm gonna send this with Shauna, she is coming over tomorrow to visit her grandmother. Also sending a box of chocolates and tons of love of course.

But, oh boy, was I wrong. I don't even know why I'm surprised, we never really did ever run out of things to say to each other.

Oh by the way, did you hear about your brother's newest flame. She's an emo goth lady atleast 10 years older than him. I swear it just gets funnier everytime. I'm having the time of my life teasing him.

Any way, this letter is not about that goon. It is all about you. You and I. Us. Has a nice ring to it, doesn't it?

It still feels like a dream. Remember that summer you tried to ask me out? We should have put your attempts on one of those funny fail video compilations.

My favourite was the last one when the boat toppled, you lost your speech and decided to just get it over with. I'm sure that was the most romantic proposal there ever was.

And Jamie's face when he lost the bet. Ha! He should have never bet against true love. Nothing ever comes between it.

So anyway while we are at it my sweet lover boy, I wanna ask you something. Okay, we are never doing that again it sounds weird. Let's just stick to baby.

So getting back to it, Shauna and Jamie asked me if we wanted to go on a double date. I said I'd ask you, but honestly all I want to do is to curl up in your arms and lie there. Sharing is not on the agenda. But think about it, will you, we need a good excuse to reject those two, they are like sleuths.

Oh, also mom asked to invite you for Thanksgiving dinner, I think your whole family's coming anyway so this is just a formality.

Really can't wait to see you baby. And kiss you under the mistletoe. Love you loads.

All my heart,
Jana.