One Million Tiny Things

Raindrops

Joane,
Have you ever watched the raindrops race each other down the car window and wondered if they talk to each other?

Have you ever seen two ants cross each other and then just stop to give a nod?

Have you ever seen the look I give you when you're looking at something else?

Trust me, it's a look of complete adoration. Gil told me that he hates spending time with the two of us anymore because he feels as if he's third-wheeling two honeymooners.

I'm head over heels I love with you Jo and the worst part is you don't even know it.

While you're running a ruckus, or breaking into Mr. Moore's house or doing all the other dumb chaotic things you do, I fall deeper and harder in love with you.

You are, hands down, the most destructive person I have ever met. You come speeding in like a tornado and leave me wrecked. But you're exhilarating and exiting. And I want more.

I don't know where it started or what lead to what, all I know is that I love you. I can practically see you scoffing and tearing up this letter. But please, Jo, just hear me out. I'm not kidding. This is not some silly prank. April 1st was months ago, in case you forgot which day it was.

I didn't dare say this to your face because I know you'll laugh in my face and pat me on the back saying "good joke, good joke!"

Trust me, Jo, I'm being completely honest. You have to take me seriously.

We've always been like the racing raindrops, we race each other for everything. I don't think there were ever two competeters like us. From that time you won that race in first grade, we've been competing for everything.

Grades, sports, anything really. If we stayed out in the rain and I got sick before you. That was such an achievement, remember?

Or that time when you built a bigger sandcastle than mine complete with a moat and a bridge. I got real mad and tried to trample it to dust. And then you got mad and almost pushed me into the sea.

Or when I managed to stick an entire candy cane in my mouth but you couldn't do it. I have never felt such pride.

"Haha beat you!" had become my life anthem. But, after a while we became so much more than just competitors, so much more than best buds, at least on my side.

I used to think that The Conjuring was the most horrifying thing in the world, but right now the fact that you might not feel the same way is the most frightening thing to me.

Jo, I'm not forcing you to love me or even look me in the face after this but if there is the slightest chance that you may feel the same way, please don't lock it up inside of you. Please tell me.

And if you don't, I understand but I hope we manage to remain friends.

Always and Forever Yours,
Christopher.