I'm yours, Professor (Quadro Series #2)

Chapter 4

Pakiramdam niya namingi siya habang nakatingin sa lalaking may munting ngiti at seryusong aura. Gusto niya na lang mawala, hindi niya ito gusto. May koneksyon pala ito sa mga magulang niya. Plano niya ba ito? Isang maling galaw niya pati ang Mama niya madadamay. Parang nasusuka siya habang iniisip lahat ng ito.

Iniwas niya ang tingin niya. She can feel herself breaking down. Wala sa sarili niyang kinuha ang inumin sa harap niya at ininom iyon. She can feel sweats on her forehead and hands but no one notice, wala sino man sakanila nakapansin na halos hindi siya mapakali sa inuupuan niya kulang na lang tumakbo siya papaalis doon.

She tried calming herself down as she rationalize her mind. She can't do anything recklessly, especially in this kind of place. No. Ito ba ang ibig sabihin ng gagong yon sa message nito? In the middle of her turmoil, her Mom spoke again. Parang bula nawala ang masamang pakiramdam niya at napalitan iyon ng bago.

The smile on her Mom's lips widen. Her heart saddened. Hindi na niya maalala kung kailan ngumite ng ganiyan ang Mommy niya para sakaniya, habang patuloy na nagsasalita ito parang may kung ano sa loob niya nangulila. Gusto niyang umiyak at umalis na lang doon.

"And, I just want to say congratulations to my daughter, Kalina for successfully opening her first sculpture and carving exhibit." Her Mom happily announced while looking at the woman sitting few chairs away from her. With her soft features and innocent smile. Agad naman napuno ng palakpak ang boung lugar.

Everything is overwhelming. Without thinking she stood up and started to walk away. Medyo madilim ang paligid at tanging ang ilaw na galing sa maliit ang stage ang umiilaw sa buong lugar kaya alam niyang walang makakapansin. Kahit ang mga katabi niya. Kailangan niyang umalis doon. Alam niya naman na wala ng magha-hanap sakaniya.

Napansin niya na lang na nasa parking lot na pala siya, the dark eerie atmosphere of the place didn't bother her, not even a little bit. She felt that same sadness creep on her and the anxious feeling that make her hand tremble lightly. Lagi iyon nangyayari. It hurt her.

Lahat ng ginawa ng mommy niya sa step-sister niya sakaniya iyon ginagawa. Gusto niyang balikan ang oras kung saan ramdam at kita niya ang pagmamahal ng Mama niya hindi kagaya ngayon. Lagi nitong sinasabi na mahal siya nito pero hindi niya ramdam. Pilit niyang inaalis sa isip niya iyon dahil alam niya mahal siya ng Ina pero minsan kagaya na lang ngayon.

Napapaisip siya dahil sa ganitong sitwasyon. Kung mahal pa ba siya ng Ina niya kagaya noon?

She was about to call her friend when suddenly a voice echo in the place, she squeezed her eyes shut hearing that familiar voice but she can pick a slight difference in his tone. Parang iba ang tono ng boses nito. She pinched herself mentally, why does she care about everything? Why does she always feel guilty doing things for her own sake, why is that?

"Don't you think its dangerous for a pretty girl like you walking around here?" Calcifer remark before standing infront of her smiling innocently. She's mad alright pero nababahala siya parang may kakaiba kasi sa lalaking ito, siguro dahil nakainom siya. "Want me to call a lift for you?"

Unexplainable anger wrap on her, seriously this man? Sinasadya niya ba ito? Sleeping with him is already a big mistake on her part and now he's the investor? Is this a joke? Why did she even sleep with him? She's regretting everything now, everything is sinking on her! Pwede niya masira ang lahat!

"Seriously?! Just leave me alone Calcifer!" Ask niya, Hindi niya maintindihan kung bakit siya ginaganito nito. Takot siya, nanghihina ang tuhod at nanginginig ang kamay. "Nahihirapan na ako!" She felt a tear falling from her eyes. "And sleeping with you just make it worse! Just leave me alone!"