We were too close to the stars~

Hold on - One-shot

Based on "Hold on" by: Chord Overstreet

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As I unlock our house from years before, I feel a gust of Deja-vu and sit down on the dusty floors. I take a look around, seeing everything still looked the same. I stand up and slowly make my way to your room seeing pictures of us. Saddened, I find my old guitar that you had gifted me. I pick it up and still see my name, in your beautiful cursive writing, on the back of it. I dust it off and start strumming and humming.

"Loving and fighting, accusing, denying"

I would always think you're out, late at night, ignoring me, find a better one. You would deny it, saying you're out with your friends, you're out with your colleagues, you're out eating, drinking, watching stars. And we would fight endlessly, accusing each other, until we'd get tired and go to sleep.

"I can't imagine a world with you gone"

It still terrified me to no end, how you could easily leave. How you could easily end things between us.

"The joy and the chaos, the demons we're made of"

And although our relationships hadn't been the best, we had our moments. The moments we enjoyed, the moments we'd cherish forever. Moments our heart would clench on.

"I'd be so lost if you left me alone"

I had never imagined it would be like this, you would be like this. I know I could never live without you, not a single second. Your memories still flood me to this day.

"You locked yourself in the bathroom, lying on the floor when I break through"

I pounded on the bathroom, fearful, almost terrified, that you're not there anymore. I enter, see you lying on the floor, catching the bottle of pills in your hand. I feel tears on my eyes.

"I pull you in to feel your heartbeat, can you hear me screaming "please don't leave me""

I pulled you in, almost instantly, trying to feel your pulse. Shaking you while screaming fearfully, trembling, calling the ambulance. Seeing color draining from your skin. Screaming for you to stay, to not leave me. How should I have known? How should I have known you feel this way.

"Hold on I still want you"

Don't leave me. You know I need you, you know I can't live without you. Please hold on to me, hold on to me and let us have our happy life. Let me heal your wounds, let me stitch your scars.

"Come back, I still need you"

It's been years but I'd still remember you. Mourn your death. You dropped hints; about you wanting to leave, about you wanting to set free. I would ignore them, think they're nonsense; now I see you lying on the bed, stone cold, pale.

"Let me take your hand, I'll make it right. I swear to love you all my life"

I held your hand once more, felt it. It had no life, it had no grip, my heart would break; piece by piece. I knew you had left, if only you could come back. If only I could show you my love once more, I would promise to love you with all my might.

"Hold on, I still need you"

I put the guitar down as I wipe my teary eyes. I curl into a small ball and sob softly. I wish you could come back, I wish I could see your smile once more.