One step at a time

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Melissa Newman

It had been a week since I got my first nose bleed and ive had many more since, I tried hiding the fact but it was useless in this house. "Lissa I'm worried about you" Lee said as he sat on my bed. I had been hearing the same thing for the last week but I was scared that's why I haven't done anything about it. I was scared for myself I was scared for everyone around me, They haven't witnessed it they haven't seen me in my worst moments I didn't give them a chance last time but this time they have front row seats to my break downs. "I'll get it checked out today after school I'll take Blake with me" I sighed. I was now dreading this day. "No we all will go we're your moral support" Martin said from next to Lee.

This was my way of telling Blake, There was no point in beating around the bush its better to just pull the band-aid off. "He's gonna leave me when he finds out the truth" I said quietly. "There's no time to discuss that there here" Lee said from my window as he peaked out. My mother made all of the boys promise to come for breakfast once a week and this week it was today apparently. I might as well tell them we have plans after school now.

"We're going somewhere after school" Lee said so I didn't have to say anything. Megan was at the table when I walked down the stairs. "Hold up when did you get here?" I looked at her and laughed. "I live the next street over Bradly told me to come over" She smiled as she looked at her plate which already had bacon on it. I giggled to myself. Why did it have to come now? I was just getting my slice of heaven. "So where are we going after school?" Tony asked with his mouth full it reminded me of a cow I shook my head getting the image out of my head. "Surprise" Mar spoke up leaving me to say nothing. "I'm driving today babe" I said as I looked at Blake he just smiled he didn't mind as long as I was with him.

Breakfast was over and we were making our way to the cars Megan and Tony jumped in with Lee and Mar the car wasn't so crowded anymore why didn't we think of this before. Melody was becoming a problem along with Sierra. "Lissa I think shes forgotten about the black eye you gave her maybe you can send her a reminder" Lee said as we walked past her. The facials she made was gold. She rushed away with Sierra on her tail. Melody could speak all the words she wanted nothing affected me and i couldn't give a rats ass what she thinks or says. The day dragged out only because of what was happening after school. My mother had booked me an appointment with the cancer specialist.

My heart was pumping when the bell signalled the end of the day, Now it was time to face my truth. Thankfully mum had told the doctor that there was a big group of people coming. I swallowed as we made it to the car. "Are you gonna tell us where were going babe?" Blake asked as he wrapped his arms around me. "That's a secret that you cant even know you will find out when we get there" I was beyond scared I squeezed him knowing this was the last time I would feel his arms around me, I talked to him more knowing that this was the last time he was going to willingly talk to me. "Lissa its okay" Lee whispered in my ear. I hoped it would be okay.

Everyone arrived and I jumped in the drivers seat trying to calm my nerves before I began driving. This was one of the hardest things ive had to do and ive done a lot of hard things in my life. Part of me thinks I should tell them right now but then part of me doesn't want to or cant find the words so i zone into the road. "Wait this is the way to the hospital" Jamie spoke from behind me. There was only one other person in this car who knew where we were going and why it didn't take a genius if you already knew of my condition. We parked and once again I was scared for my life. "Follow me and don't say anything please"

A tear came out I couldn't stop it and at the same time I couldn't help it. We made our way to the cancer ward, I went to the reception well the others found somewhere to sit. "Your mother wasn't joking when she said there would be a crowd" The receptionist spoke and I laughed. "These are just my close friends" I smiled as I took my seat waiting for my name to be called.