One step at a time

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Melissa Newman

Flashback *2 years ago*

I entered the hall looking for one person, in particular, James Jamison the captain of the basketball team, The boy I loved so when I spotted him my heart started beating so fast that it was hurting my rib cage. I got closer and found him sucking faces with a blond girl who I noticed as Belle. One of Beatrice's minions. Beatrice didn't pick on me but her minions did. My heart broke at the sight "J-James I thought you loved m-me" I spoke so little the inside of me turned. "Fuckoff Melissa I only said that for you to fall for me so I could drop you the next day I never loved you never fucking will so if you wouldn't mind I'm in the middle of something" I didn't let him finish I running out the door my plan had gone just the way I had wanted it but now I needed to fake cry past Blake my best friend. "Melissa what's wrong" I heard him say but I couldn't turn around these fake tears suddenly turned into real tears as I realized what I was doing

Flashback over

That was the last memory I had of Blake who had been my best friend since we were in diapers I guess it was forced upon us our mothers were best friends I never thought we would I thought he would favor Bradly over me but he never did he made sure everyone knew I was his best friend and he protected me as much as he could little do he know everything was planned, I had been planning that event for 5 months I knew James feelings I had known all along I had counted on it more then I thought.

Flashback to before the events that had happen

I smiled at my reflection in the mirror as I looked over my shoulder the tears were clear on my parent's faces, their children growing up as we got ready for our junior prom. Bradly entered the room his smile infectious as it always was. He could light up the room in less than a minute he was my sunshine and always be despite my choices that would ultimately affect him. Blake was going to meet us in our school hall with his girlfriend Beatrice. They had been together for just over a month and at first, it had broken me but I couldn't hold onto him forever especially knowing what I knew.

flashback over

I smiled at the memory's of my once best friend and I had hoped that him and Beatrice were happy, something I could never guarantee if I had stayed around.

Flashback

I had already known where I was going and knew the route like the back of my hand, I had taken this route almost every day for the last 2 months I needed to make sure I knew how long it would take me if I was to get there on time I had just over 2 hours before I needed to check-in and the trip normally took me 1 hour and 45 minutes leaving me with 30 minutes to dump the car somewhere and catch a taxi to my destination it would be close but my destination was the last place anyone would look for me. 2 hours later I stood at the desk of a hospital who specialized in cancer patients I had been accepted 2 weeks ago when they had confirmed what I already knew I had.

Flashback over

Here I stood 2 years later at the same desk I checked myself in just as I was about to leave I see two familiar figures in the hallway. "Your doctor called us we had to sign the discharge papers" My mother smiled at me as a tear slid down her cheek. "He doesn't know does he" I had hoped they had kept my promise. "We told him you were at a boarding school" My dad practically whispered. I was a shadow of who I used to be I was weaker and had lost a lot of weight something my condition took without permission might I add. "we made sure he was out with friends before we left it's going to be a surprise to see you, he asks about you almost every day he misses his twin sister" I smile at that. "Why didn't you tell us?" My mother was crying leaning on my dad. "I wanted you to remember me how I was happy and smiling" I grabbed her hand and slightly squeezed it. "I'm here now mum everything's going to be fine" unless I relapse that is. "Let us go your brothers already bombing my phone" Dad rolled his eyes.