One step at a time

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Melissa Newman

It had been 4 weeks since I had last talked to Blake I had tried to contact him, I tried calling him but was forever getting his voicemail so I decided to go and see him at his house. His car was in the driveway. "Can I see Blake?" I asked his mother. "He's not home" did she think I was that stupid. "Okay, He doesn't want to talk to you" I was over this bullshit. So what we had sex what was so bad about having sex with your partner. "Fine since he doesn't want to talk to me can you pass on a message for me?" I asked his mother as she shook her head agreeing to give my message. "Tell him that I've ended the relationship tell him that we are over and not to contact me again please" I smiled sweetly at her while I walked away. "Come on hunny you really don't want to do that we both know how you feel about him" I considered her words and she was right I love Blake and I always will but I had enough of his games. "Your right, I love him and I always will but I'm not sticking around for his mind games, We had sex I've given him plenty of time to get over whatever he was going through but now I'm over waiting. he didn't want to talk about it I gave him time, I only have so much time to give and now he's run out I'm sorry but I have to do this for me" I know Blake heard everything I said and I might have overreacted but I wanted a relationship with an adult. I didn't want someone who was having a hissy because we had sex.

"He's been in a relationship with a girl named Kelsey for the last year and a half that's why he's reacting the way he is, Melissa Blake was about to get married when you came back into town and he's still with her he didn't want me to tell you, He didn't mean to cheat on her or you and didn't mean to lead you on by sleeping with you that's why he's acting the way he is" My heart broke, It broke to the point of no repair. I had been through enough as It is and Blake just added to that. I don't think anything would be able to fix me anymore.

When I got home I was already in tears. How could he have done this to me? Me out of all people. I was supposed to be his best friend and he turns around and does this to me. When am I ever gonna find someone to love? When am I gonna have my happy ever after? Lee was the first to spot me. He cradled me in his arms and waited for me to stop. "What's wrong Lissa?" I looked at Lee maybe he already knew? Maybe they all already knew. "Blake's mother just told me about Kelsey" I looked at Casey if anyone knew it would be him. "He told me that he broke it off with her" Casey said as he looked at me he was getting angry. "Well he never did, He just had sex with me and left me here to pick up the pieces like everyone does" I hiccup due to the tears. "You guys had sex" Lee shouted I forgot that I never told any of them.

I felt the sudden urge to throw up and the net thing I knew , it was all coming out. I had thrown up on Lee without even realizing it. "Oh thanks Lissa" He was snarky but I was panicking. This is the first sign of my cancer coming back. I looked at Martin who looked at me the same way. I had just gotten cancer free how was I supposed to go through all of that again. I don't know if I would be able to survive this again. "That would be why Blake chose to go to NYU after all" Tony laughed but it wasn't filled with humor it was a dark laugh. The laugh that villains make when they're about to kill a whole village.

"We need to go to the hospital right now" Martin yelled. I didn't know why he yelled until I felt something streaming down my face. It was blood and a lot of it. The second sign of my cancer coming back. "Do we have to?" I asked Martin. I didn't want to know if I had cancer or not I didn't want to face the reality of the situation. In all honesty I was scared. I will continue to be scared my whole life. "Fine how about if you throw up one more time then we will go to the hospital" Lee reasoned with me.

We had been sitting in the front yard for over an hour when I saw Blake and a girl walk our way, I couldn't face him and to be honest I didn't want to face him. He could have just told me and all this unnecessary drama could have been avoided but he didn't tell me, He filled me with promises he couldn't keep, He filled me with hope of a better future. He filled me with fake love. He was my best friend and he did this to me. I got up and walked inside leaving the rest of them to deal with him.