The Journal of Remus Lupin

18

Oh gosh! I am writing this now, in the hospital wing, at night, while everyone else is asleep.

During dinner time tonight, after the effects of the Skelle-grow potion wore off, Madam Pomfrey left to get something to eat. Did I forget to write that James owns an invisibility cloak? If so, then I'm a nitwit for forgetting.

I woke up feeling groggy, and Madam Pomfrey left. Then, I closed my eyes again. Seriously, that potion made me ache all over! It hurt, being awake. All I wanted was to get right back to sleep. Well, I was about to fall asleep when I heard a loud voice say: "Oh gosh! Remus, what in blazes happened?"

It was the voice of my friend, James.

Suddenly, out of thin air, my three friends appeared right in front of me. Sirius was already done with detention. Peter was nibbling on something he brought from downstairs, and James was outright aghast.

"Remus, what happened to you?" gasped Sirius.

Peter stopped eating for a while. "You look awful."

James silenced them both and looked at me sternly. "What is going on? REMUS JOHN LUPIN, WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?"

I sighed. It took all of my energy to mumble a reply.

"Nothing".

PATHETIC! Of all the things I could have said, I had to say that? Well, I bet you can imagine their reactions....

Sirius slammed his fist down on the bedside table "What do you mean, NOTHING? You look bloody terrible!"

Peter dropped his food in surprise.

James gritted his teeth. "Did someone hex you or something because I am going to-"

Just then, Madam Pomfrey came into the room, and scolded them for bothering me. She was furious. She told them that they shouldn't have woken me up, she told them about the Skelle-grow, but thank goodness she didn't tell them why I was here in the first place! She pushed them out, muttering under her breath. James tried to protest, but it was no use.

Anyway, here I am now, in the dark. James, Sirius, and Peter are probably asleep. I should probably sleep too, but I slept all day, and it's no use trying to do it now. What will I tell them tomorrow? Why? Why did I let myself get too close to them? What do I say? What will I tell them? I can't let them know about...my........

UGH! This is so frustrating! Why me? I've asked that question so many times. Why? Why did it have to be me? I just want to study without interruptions, learn things, have friends, and be....normal!