Dad talked to me today. He noticed my mood. He looked really sad. He says that I should go back to school, have "fun", and be myself. He says that I grew up way too fast. He says that I should just enjoy being a kid.
GREW UP? For crying out loud, of course I didn't GROW UP! I JUST HAVE A LOT TO DEAL WITH! How can I possibly have "fun" when once a month I turn into a-a.....a MONSTER! THERE! I've written it down! Once a month I have no control over anything I do! I hurt myself...tear myself apart! I have to hide it from everyone! Teachers, friends, schoolmates! EVERYONE!! HOW CAN I HAVE "FUN"? HOW CAN HE SAY THAT I "GREW UP" TOO FAST? My hair is turning grey for Pete's sake! I AM NOT NORMAL! Doesn't he know that it hurts? Doesn't he know that it's so hard to lie to my friends? How can I have "fun" while I'm lying? How can I have "fun" when I'm sick? How can I have "fun" when I wake up once a month in the hospital wing? How can I have "fun" when I spend my time making up excuses?
When...if....they find out. If my friends find out, GODRIC GRYFFINDOR, they'll be mad! I have no idea what they'll say! I deserve it! I can't get too close...
OH, I DON'T KNOW! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW!!!
I am NOT going to sleep tonight. No BLOODY way.
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The Journal of Remus Lupin
FanficThis is the journal of Remus Lupin. I have put a tongue tying hex on it, and have put a lot of other charms on it as well. Don't even try to read it (i'm talking to you, Black!) Shared by Teddy Lupin after reading his fathers journal. I have reinfor...
