The Journal of Remus Lupin

40

MERLINS BEARD! I don't always look in the mirror. Come to think of it, I barely know what I look like. Today, I did take a good look at myself. MY HAIR IS TURNING GRAY!!!

Not all of it...but it's streaked with some grey! I tried pulling them out...but there's more than I can count . I told dad, and he told mum, and mum told a healer, and the healer reckons it's because of the...pain...stress...or....well...she said a lot. The healer says it's because of my....transformations. They've been getting worse, and apparently, they're taking their toll on my health. The healer says I'm underweight. She says I'm too pale. She says I'm weak.

Now, mum is making me sleep at 7:00 pm, She's stuffing me with food, and she's practically pushing me to go outside and exercise. It's crazy!!! Dad says my hair looks "cool". He's just saying that 'cause he's dad! What'll my friends think? What'll the teachers think? What'll the whole school think? I can hear what they'll say now!

"Oh look, it's Lupin, the freak with greying hair! He's only twelve years old, what could possibly make his hair turn grey?"

I AM FREAKING OUT NOW!!!

I can't pull all of them out! They're barely noticeable from afar...but if someone takes a good look at me, they'll see it! Mum says I'm too young to dye my hair. Dad says that grey hair make people look wise. The healer says that I can blame it on my genes. She says I can tell my friends it's hereditary. Well, guess what? SHE DOESN'T KNOW THE MARAUDERS! They will never fall for something like that!

I need to think...I need some tea...or chocolate. Should I even go back to Hogwarts? Merlin's beard! Grey hair! What'll happen next? No hope!