Tw self harm
you both walk into your house and go into your living room and take a seat on the sofa you talk for a little while just about what you have been doing you both talk about things like that for about an hour
y/n: so have you got any plans on how you're going to ask him
charlie: to be honest I have no idea I just want it to be perfect
you both sit thinking for a while
y/n: I have an idea
charlie: okay let's hear it
y/n: how bout you take him for a fancy meal then after that, you take him to the beach where I have rose petals leading down the beach with candles where you propose in front of the sea at sunset
charlie: oh my god y/n I love it it's perfect he will love it
you both smile and continue talking for the next few hours enjoying each other's company until it starts to get late and he decides its time to go home you both say your goodbyes at the door once he has gone you go upstairs to your room when you get there you close the door behind you and go and lay on your bed and try to get some sleep but for some reason, you can't sleep you you decide to try and text Vinnie
Vin🤍
hey baby
read 00:43 am
did I do something wrong
read 00:54 am
vin please don't ignore me
] I'm going to sleep I love you
read 1:21 am
you lay there in silence as all the thoughts run through your head did I do something wrong, what if he doesn't love me anymore, have I upset him
Of course you have you always him you cause him so much pain
Why would he still love you he probably never did he just feels bad for you i mean look at you
Your right of corporate you have done something wrong you always do your so clingy he's probably getting sick of you you never leave him alone he will be better of without you everyone would
SHUT UP you shout trying to silence the voices in your head trying your best to not believe them as you lay there you begin to cry and cry so you slowly roll out of bed and walk into your bathroom you don't realize what you are doing until you you're stood in front of the mirror holding your razor with your sleeves rolled up
Go on do it just one won't hurt no I cant yes you can just do it you know in right I always am
without thinking twice you do it making a long deep cut along your wrist you keep doing that until you are halfway up your forearm and there's blood everywhere in your sink on the floor and all over your hands you start to panic realizing what you have just done but at the same time you feel relieved like a weight was lifted from your chest but at the same time you feel ashamed in your self you quickly clean up the blood and clean your cuts and try and stop them from bleeding once you have done that you walk out of your bathroom still slightly crying into your bedroom you walk into your closet and change into a baggy top and some shorts then you slowly crawl back into bed and check your messages to see if Vinnie has replied to you but he hasn't it makes you cry even more seeing he was only active 5 minutes ago then you go onto your call log and call your mom it rings about 5 times until she answers you
y/n: hey mom
mom: hey baby why are you up so late
y/n: I couldn't sleep
mom: aww baby what's wrong you sound like you have been crying
y/n: just a lot has been running through my head
mom: what like
y/n: just things like everyone would be better off without me and Vinnie is being off with me after I got off the phone with charlie and giving me one-word replies don't know what I have done wrong
mom: baby you haven't done anything wrong he was probably just having a bad day and your wrong nobody would be better off without you never say that y/n we all love you so much
y/n: I'm sorry mom
mom: don't say sorry baby it's not your fault
you stay silent trying to hold your tears in
mom: y/n have you relapsed
you just start to cray harder
y/n: I'm sorry I'm so sorry
mom: oh baby why you was 4 years clean
y/n: it's all getting to mutch the pain the thoughts all of the comments just everything is too much mom
mom: it's okay I understand but you need to get better and get some help never listen to the comments there all just jealous and the thoughts will just go away don't believe them because there not true and as for the pain it will get better trust me it will get better I might take some time but it will y/n
y/n: thank you mom I'm going to try and get some sleep I love you
mom: I love you too baby just promise to call me when you feel like this I don't want you going through this by your self and if you don't call me call Vinnie
y/n: I will mom
mom: okay bye baby
y/n: bye mom
you put the phone down and try to get some sleep it takes about an hour but you finally fall asleep
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Love ~ vinnie hacker
RomanceTW SH ED Anxiety Depression Suicide when a girl is in love with the famous Vinnie hacker. will she make it out alive or will the haters win, y/n has always suffered with her mental health she moved to la when she first started to take off on socia...
