Love ~ vinnie hacker

Sea

You wake up to the sound of vinnie on the phone
Vinnie: yeah, she's asleep right now but I'll ask her when he wakes up...... okay bye
You groan as you turn over and look at him
Y/n: what time is it
Vinnie: 10am
Y/n: who was that on the phone
Vinnie: oh hype wanted to know if you wanted to know if you wanted to go and see them today
Y/n: yeah
He smiles at you
Vinnie: really, they've all missed you so much
Y/n: yeah, I've missed them too
He smiles at you
Vinnie: I'm just gonna go home first and get changed and have a shower then I'll come back and get you
You nod your head as he stands up from the bed and kisses you
Vinnie: I'll be back soon I love you
Y/n: I love you too you
He then leaves your room and heads down stairs you hear the front door open and close as you sigh and sit up from your bed you reach into your pocket and grab the pills and open then you pour 2 into your hand as you bedroom door opens you quickly look up and see vinnie standing there he looks at the pills in your hand then he looks back at you.

Vinnie: your taking the pills again, what the hell, y/n is this you trying harder
Y/n: I can't do it anymore
Vinnie: do what
Y/n: anything, I know you want the old y/n back but I can't find her I don't think she's there anymore I tried I really tried
Your voice starts to brake as tears roll down your face
Y/n: there's something wrong with me vin and I don't know what to do anymore
Vinnie sits down next to you as you brake down in his arms
Vinnie: shhh, y,n everything's going to be okay
You says in a soft voice trying to calm you down
Once you have calmed down you pull away from vinnies arms
Y/n: I-I need some fresh air, I-I 'll be back soon
You say as you stand up feeling mentally numb as you walk down the stairs
Vinnie: y/n where are you going
Y/n: on a walk

Vinnie grabs your hand and pulls you so your facing him you wince in pain as he touch your cuts vinnie frowns as he goes to lift up your sleeve but you quickly push him away as you readjust your sleeve you look up at vinnie who now has tears in his eyes as he looks at you

Vinnie: please don't push me away again
You sigh as you look him in his eyes
Y/n: I'll be back soon vin I promise

you then turn away from him and leave your house you start walking and walking for ages you gong know where your going  you just keep walking until you reach a beach you sigh as you sit down on  the rocks you take a deep breath as tears silently roll down your face you put you head down as you try to stop your crying once your tears have slowed down you grab your phone from your pocket and call your moms number it rings for a minute or so until it goes to voicemail and you hear your mom's voice again

Mom: hi you have reached the voicemail of Lilly l/n please leave your name and number and I will get back to you
Tears start to roll down your face again as you hear the sound of her voice
Y/n: hey mom, i really really miss you and dad I've tried to come and be with my but it never works, I can't even do that right I-I just don't know how much longer I can keep going mom
Me and vinnie have been going through a really rough patch I thought he cheated on me with one if my closest friends but he didn't she tried to kiss him but he pushed her away she was saying that he could do so much better than me and I don't deserve him but the worst part is that she's right mom I don't deserve him I just don't know what to do anymore, I'm back on school the pills again I need some help I'm going to fly home in a few days I need to see you and dad but I'm going to go now I love you

You end the call and put the phone down next to you as you wipe your tears away and look around the beach there only a few people there it's mostly old people walking there dogs you used to go swimming in the ocean when you was younger you sigh as you stand up and walk towards the sea you take your clothes off leaving you in your bra and underwear and then you set your clothes down on the rocks and you slowly walk into the water you take a deep breath as the cold water shocks you but you soon get used to the coldness you start to swim around for a little while until the waves start getting to big that's when you decide to swim back to shaw once you get out of the water you wring all of the water out of your hair then you grab your clothes and go and sit back down on the rocks it's a really warm day today you stay like that fur a while watching the family's play in the sun it makes you think about the times when you was younger you sigh as you put your clothes back on then you put on your shoes and start the walk back to your house you haven't checked your phone yet but you know your going to have tons of calls from vinnie keep you waking until you are a convenience store you sigh as you walk into the shop and grab a bottle of water and head to the cashier

Cashier: is there anything else I can get you
Y/n: can I get a packet of cigarettes please and a lighter
He nods his head and grabs them then he puts them on the counter for you
Cashier: that will be $16:32 please
You grab your bank card and pay
Y/n: thank you

He smiles at you then you leave the store and continue the walk back to your house once you get there you sit down in the doorstep and grab the cigarettes and lighter from out of your pocket and take you time to smoke a cigarette before going inside