Love ~ vinnie hacker

Store

Once you get back to your car you start the 40 minute drive back   as your driving up the long path to your cabin you feel a sense of relief, nobody knows about it nobody will be able to find you.
you park your car you grab your coffee
And head inside you put your keys on the side and go straight into your room you take your phone out of your pocket you see that vinnie is ringing you so you decline the call and lay down in your bed you look out the window and see it's raining so you get out of bed and take a seat at your window, you open your window slightly so you can listen to the rain, you love the sound of rain it's so relaxing you reach over to your bed and grab your cigarettes and take one out of the packet you light it and smoke it
You take your time smoking it as you watch the rain after about 20 minutes you can hear your phone ringing it's no caller ID so you accept it
Y/n: hello
Vinnie: y/n
You sigh
Y/n: Vinnie leave me alone
You say as your about to end the call
Vinnie: no y/n wait

You ignore him and end the call you stand up and go into your kitchen you feel really hungry you haven't ate since you and Vinnie went out for dinner you feel really weak so you grab your car keys and head out to your car you start the 30 minute drive to the store one you get there you take a deep breath as you get out of the car you put in your headphone's in and walk into the store you get the stuff to make a chicken salad sandwich you try your best not to check the calories as you pick some items up once you have everything you need you head to the checkout and pay for your items then you go back out to your car you're glad you didn't see anybody you knew And that anybody tried to  and speak to you once you get back in your car you put your bags next to you as you reach into your pocket and grab your cigarettes and open the pack to see you only have 1 left so you decide to go to the convenience store it takes you about 10 minutes to get there and once you do you park your car and head inside and go to the cashier

Cashier: what can I get you
Y/n: can I get a packet of cigarettes and a bottle of vodka please
Cashier: yep
He turns around and grabs the stuff you asked for then he sets it down on the counter for you
Cashier: that will be $25 dollars please
You take your bank card out of your pocket and pay then you say thank you to him as you grab your things and head back out to your car and start the 35 minute drive back to your house but it takes you 50 minutes to get back because there is some really bad traffic but once you finally get home you head inside and and get all of the stuff out of your bags to make your food

You start by putting the seasoning on your chicken then you put it in the oven while that is cooking you get everything else ready you chop your tomatoes and cucumber and put it all onto your lettuce onto your bread it takes about 20 minutes for the chicken to cook once to do you take it out if the oven and shred your chicken and put it on the sandwich with some mayo on top then you take a seat at the table with the food in front of you

You start tapping your fingers on the table as you pick up the sandwich you squeeze your eyes shut as you take a bite
You place the sandwich back down on the plate as you swallow the food you take your phone out of your pocket and go onto TikTok to try and take your mind off the food that's in front  of you trying to ignore the voices in your head it takes you about 45 minutes to finish the sandwich once you have you feel really proud of yourself as you stand up and walk into the kitchen and wash your plate and put it away

Once you finish doing that you grab your cigarettes and vodka and you go into your room and take a seat on your bed, you grab your remote control and put Netflix on as you open your vodka you slowly start to drink it as you feel the cold burning liquid run down your throat you sigh as you take another mouth full
As you watch Netflix

You don't realise you fell asleep until you wake up not being able to breathe all you can see is his face every every time you close your eyes  you pull your knees up to your chest s tears run down your face you keep getting flash backs until you start to have a really back panic attack you reach for your phone and call Jaden ,you have always been close, the phone rings 3 times before he answers you

Jaden: y/n is that you
Y/n: y..yeah
You say trying to breath as more tears run down your face, you can hear him stand up
Jaden: whoa whoa calm down. y/n breath tell me what's wrong
Y/n: I .. c-can't breath
You hear jaden  grab his car keys and run to his car
Jaden: y/n tell me where you are send me your location
You send him your location
Jaden: I be there soon can you stay on the phone
Y/n: n-no
You say as you cry even more
Jaden: I'll be there soon y/n try and get your breathing under control

You end the call as you get out of bed and
stumbling into your bathroom as everything goes blurry as you feel you body hit the cold floor