Love ~ vinnie hacker

Alex

                                      TW: SH

You stand there in front of your mirror as tears continue to roll down your face with your blade in your hand with your sleeves rolled up you take a deep breath as you put the blade against your arm you slowly press down and drag it across your arm you see the blood start to drip into your sink as you create more and more cuts once one arm is covered your still not satisfied so you move to your other arm and make a few cuts but you start to feel light headed you drop the blade into the sink as your hands shake as you wash the blood down the drain  you hold onto the counter for support as everything starts spinning and the next thing you know everything goes black

                                 Jaden's PoV

He smiles as he had just finished recording the song he had made for you as a surprise he hears his phone start to ring he sees that is Alex so he answers the phone
Alex: hello
Jaden: what's up
Alex: we're just wondering if you know where y/n is nobody can get a hold of her normally we can but she isn't answering and we're all getting worried
Jaden frowns
Jaden: yeah I might know where she is I'll go there now and check on her I'll let you know how she is when I get there
Alex: okay thank you Jaden
Jaden: it's okay

Jaden ends the call and rushes out to his car he's 45 minutes away from your cabin but he has a pit in the bottom of his stomach telling him something isn't right  he tries to get to you as fast as he could and once he dose he parks his car next to yours he quickly get out and knocks on your door but you don't answer he keeps knocking
Jaden: y/n let me in
He stands there for a few seconds but you still don't answer the door the feeling in his stomach gets worse as he tries the door he sighs in relief as the is unlocked and he goes inside and heads to your room once he gets there he knocks on the door and then he walks into your room he frowns as he sees that you're not in your bed so he walks closer to bathroom and knocks on the door
Jaden: y/n ..... y/n are you in there
He gets no reply so he slowly opens the door his eyes go wide as his heart sinks as he sees you on the floor with blood flowing out of your arms  he drops to his knees and pulls you onto his knee he sighs in relief as he can see that you are still breathing
Jaden: y/n wake up..... y/n please
He says as a tear rolls down his cheek he grabs a towel from off the counter and wraps it around your arm that is bleeding the most
Jaden: come on y/n please wake up
He says as more tears start to roll down his face as he is holding the towel around your arms your eyes start to open

                                  Your PoV

You start to wake up feeling pressure on your arms your eyes begin to focus and that's when you see Jaden
Y/n:j-Jaden
He instantly looks down at you as you  see that he is crying with how red his eyes are he has blood on his hands and that's when you realise what has happened you instantly pull your arm away from him and try to sit up
Jaden: y/n calm down
you quickly pull down your sleeves and try to stand up But you stumble into your wall jaden quickly stand up to try and help you keep balanced

Jaden: y/n: be careful
Y:n: let go of me, leave me alone Jaden
Jaden sighs as he lets go of you
Jaden: y/n please just let me help you and stop the bleeding.... Please
He says as his voice  brakes

You look at him giving you a pleading look was he holds his boldly hands out as you look down at your hoodie to see the blood from your arms coming through onto the sleeves of your hoodie you sigh as you slowly nod your head and sit down on the counter and roll your sleeves up
He gives you a sad smile as he grabs a fresh towel and hold is in to your arms you both don't speak the whole time you can see tears in his eyes as he sees the damage you have caused to your arms once he has stoped the bleeding and had cleaned the cuts you get down from off the counter and walk back into your room and lay facing the wall shortly after Jaden  walks into your bedroom and takes a seat on your bed

Jaden: y/n
He says as you stay silent
Jaden: y/n please talk to me..... what's going off
Yeah sigh as a tear rolls down your face
Y/n: nothing, I'm fine
Jaden: no you're not y/n don't lie to me just tell me what's wrong I want to help you y/n .... Please
You slowly sit up from your bed and pull your knees up to your chest
Y/n: it would be better if I wasn't here jay, everyone is right, I don't deserve to be here Vinnie could do so much better then me Jaden, I just don't know what to do any more
You say as more tears start to pour down your face as Jaden quickly pulls you into a hug 
Jaden: shhh it's okay y/n
He just lets you cry until you pull away from the hug
Y/n: I'm so sorry Jaden
Jaden: no y/n it's not your fault and your wrong it wouldn't be better if you wasn't here and vinnie couldn't do better then you you're the best thing that has ever happened to him and you always will be who told you that 
Y/n: everyone sees it jay, the people that commented on mine and vinnies tiktoks nailea was the only one that would say anything out of all of you
Jaden frowns as you finish you sentence
Jaden: what do you mean nailea was the only one who would say something
Y/n: s-she ahh she tried to kiss vinnie she said that he can do so much better than me and she's right jay
Jaden: no she's not y/n if anything you can do way better then vinnie
           
                                 Jaden's PoV
You continue to cry as Jaden just comforts you until you slowly fall asleep Jaden sighs as he sees that you are sleeping as he slowly gets up from your bed and heads into your kitchen