Love ~ vinnie hacker

Talk

You take a deep breath as you head inside your house you hear Vinnie stand up from the kitchen and go into the hallway where you're standing you narrow your eyebrows as you see

Vinnie: y/n where have you been I was getting really worried you were gone for quite a while
Y/n: I-I just needed to clear my head vin
He nods his head as he looks at you and sees that your hair is still slightly wet
Vinnie: why's your hair wet
Y/n: oh I um went to the beach and I decided to go for a swim
Vinnie: oh okay how was it
Y/n: it was nice there wasn't really anybody there

You say as you walk into the kitchen with Vinnie closely following behind you as you take a seat on one of the stools you put your head down as Vinnie takes a seat in front of you and starts speaking

Vinnie: y/n
You look up at him 
Y/n: yeah.
Vinnie: what's going off y/n
Y/n: w-what do you mean
You say putting your head back down and playing with the strings of your hoodie
Vinnie: you know what I mean, your not your self your dinking at 5 pm your back on the pills you're disappearing for days at a time y/n I really worried about you
Y/n: I'm worried about me too vin I-I just just don't know what to do anymore it's like I trapped in this tiny box and the wall's are closing in on me and I can't get out not matter how hard I try nothings working vin
You sigh as you wipe the tear away that's falling down your face as you try and explain what's going off in your head
Y/n: it's like every time I'm even slightly happy something happens something goes wrong and drinking and taking the pills numbs the pain for a while long enough for me to forget everything that's but the truth is nothing truly helps vin it just gets worse and I don't know what to do anymore I just want the old me back the me that was happy

You say as you brake down in tears as Vinnie quickly rushes over to you and pulls you into his arms he doesn't say anything he just holds you there when you cry. One you have controlled your crying you pull away from the hug and Vinnie goes and sits back down in front of you

Y/n: I'm sorry vin
You say as you keep your head down
Vinnie: what for
Y/n: for putting all of my problems onto you, you should have to deal with them vin
He puts his hand into your chin and slowly moves your head up you're looking into each others eyes
Vinnie: y/n listen to me we're going to get through this together I promise, and I know it feels like it's never going to get better but it will y/n: but what if it doesn't get better vin
Vinnie: it will y/n I promise you and I'm going to be here every step of the way
You nod your head
Vinnie: but you need to want help you y/n for be to be able to help you
Y/n: and I do vin I really do but I don't know what to do anymore, I can't eat I can't sleep I have this overwhelming feeling that something bad is  going to happen

you say with a shaky  voice as Vinnie pulls  you back into a hug. He can feel his hoodie start to get wet from your tears it's killing him seeing you like this tears start to form in his eyes but he quickly blinks them away he stays quiet for a little while just holding you in his arms until you  pull away from his arms
Y/n: I'm going to go and take a shower
He nods his head
Vinnie: okay baby

You give him a slight smile as you stand up and slowly walk up the stairs and into your bedroom and close the door behind you, you sigh as more tears start to roll down your face you let them fall as you walk over to your closet and grab some fresh  clothes then you go into your bathroom you turn your shower once it has heated up you  you strip out of your clothes and get into the shower you hiss as the hot water hits the cuts on your arms
Y/n: ahhh
You say under your breath you sigh as you start to get used to the burning water you wash your body as your hands shake you feel really bad how you've just dropped all of your problems onto Vinnie there not his problems more tears start to roll down your face
Y/n: Vinnie deserves to be happy not worrying about me all the time
You say under your breath you legs start to shake as you fall to the ground
Y/n: ahhh fuck
You say as you hear Vinnie knock on the door
Vinnie: y/n are you okay I herd a bang
Y/n: yeah I'm fine I just dropped the shampoo bottle
Vinnie: oh okay
You hear him walk away and you quickly wash your body then you get out of the shower and wrap your towel around yourself and you dry your body and put your hair in the towel after you do that you put your clothes on then you dry and brush your hair and put it into a messy bun you take one more look at your self in the mirror then you take a deep breath and go onto your room you expect to see Vinnie but he isn't there you sigh in relief as you lay down in your bed facing the wall as you close your eyes you hear your bedroom door open and close the you feel the bed dip down next to you