Love ~ vinnie hacker

show me

                                                                                                         TW: sh

you see the call is from Vinnie so you decline the call and turn your phone off and put it next to you while loads of thoughts are running through your head

would he really cheat on me

of course, he would why wouldn't he

I thought he loved me

why would he, he just feels sorry for you I mean look at you she's probably way prettier than you

just stop please you shout trying to silence the voices

shouting isn't going to stop me but you know what will

while you are crying you hear you hear someone knock on your door after 5 minutes they stop knocking then your phone starts ringing again you sigh and put your phone on silent and go into your bathroom. you stand in front of your mirror and open your draw you pull out one of your razors and break it until you get a blade you take a deep breath as you press the blade to your wrists and slowly rag it across you hiss in pain but once the pain subsides you feel calm as the voice goes silent you make some more cuts on both your arms until you are satisfied with what you have done but that feeling soon goes way as you start to feel disappointed and ashamed in your self as you throw the blade in the sink you turn on the tap and wash away all of the blood. once you have stopped the cuts from bleeding as much you get some bandages out of your draw and wrap your arms up to keep them clean once you have done you go back into your room and get a pair of clean clothes you change into a baggy hoodie and some black leggins then you brush your hair and put it in a messy bun then you grab your phone from off the bed then you head back downstairs and grab your car keys and go to your car once you get in you hook your phone up to Bluetooth and play your favorite songs and start driving. you keep driving until you reach the Hollywood sign you park your car and go and sit where you and Vinnie had the picnic you sigh looking over Hollywood you take a cigarette out of your pocket and light it, you smoke your cigarette while watching the sunset it's really relaxing once the sun has set you go get back in your car and head home. once you get there you park your car in the driveway and head inside you lock the door behind you and walk upstairs and go into your room you grab your phone from out of your pocket and turn it on you see a few missed calls and tests from Vinnie so you click on the messages

                                                                                                        vin🤍

                                                                                          . 2:02 pm

y/n where are you?

delivered at 2:02 pm

y/n I'm starting to worry

delivered at 2:24 pm

are you okay I'm getting really worried now

delivered at 3:00 pm

                                                                                                                   you missed a call from vin🤍

                                                                                                         you missed a call from vin🤍

                                                                                                       you missed a call from vin 🤍                                      

y/n please answer me

delivered at 4:08 pm

please don't hurt yourself

delivered at 4:33 pm

you sigh and turn your phone off and lay down on your bed you start to fall asleep you wake up to your door opening. as you're facing your wall you feel your bed dip in you instantly know its Vinnie you keep looking at the wall as you hear him sigh

Vinnie: y/n please speak to me, what's wrong 

you stay silent as a tear runs down your face

Vinnie: y/n, please

y/n: just go vin

Vinnie: no y/n tell me what happened

y/n: whos grace

you turn over and look at him

Vinnie: w-what

y/n: Vinnie just go

you say as you start to cry even more

Vinnie: no y/n, it's not what you think

y/n: then what is it

you say standing up in front of him

Vinnie: she's just a friend

you laugh as more tears run down your face you turn around and walk out of the room and walk downstairs and go to your back door and sit down  on the step and take out a cigarette from out of your pocket and light it as you take a puff. as Vinnie sits down next to my and puts his arm around you

Vinnie: y/n you are the only girl I will ever love, grace is only a friend I've known her since I was like five and I don't think I'm her type

he says as you look up at him with a confused look on your face

Vinnie: but you are

Vinnie says as he lets out a little chuckle

y/n; what

Vinnie: grace is gay that's why she wanted to meet today to tell me

you put your head down

y/n: I'm sorry vin I just started to overthink when I saw the message my thoughts got the best of me and I  started thinking the worst I'm soo sorry Vinnie

you say as a tear runs down your face Vinnie pulls you close

Vinnie: shhh y/n it's okay I did the same when I heard you on the phone to charlie its okay y/n

you pull your sleeves  down you cover your hands as Vinnie pulls you close

y/n: do you want one

you say as you take out two cigarettes he nods his head and takes one out of your hand you both sit in silence, you look down and see your leave starting to ride up and she a bit of your bandages you pull  your sleeve down as yu look up you see Vinnie looking at your arm

Vinnie: y/n

y/n: yeah

Vinnie: have you cut again

your eyes go wide

y/n: w-what n-no

you say as you stand up and turn around walking into the kitchen as Vinnie follows you

Vinnie: baby please don't lie to me

y/n: I'm not

vinnie: then show me