My Snowflake - Killer Frost/Caitlin Snow x Male meta reader

Time loop

"Okay. Okay. What is happening?", You mutter as you hold on to Caitlin.

"How about you tell me? You lose your breath for a second and then gasp for air the next.", She replies, holding you close.

"XS, Cicada... He killed you... I was about to... I almost...", You started rambling as tears ran down your cheeks in horror, vividly remembering the scene.

"Hey. Hey. We're here. Cicada can't get us here. Don't worry."

You looked up. XS. She must have the answers.

Timeskip as you walk through the halls as Caitlin follows you questioning you

As you arrived at the core, you found yourself suddenly back at the point you just walked from.

"What the-?", You asked yourself.

"What is it, Y/N?", Caitlin asked.

"Another reset...she's messing with time over and over again?"

"Who is?"

You explain everything to Caitlin, but by the time you're done, everything just rewinds again.

You started to lose count. Time and time again, you tried to find XS but kept rewinding back to that spot.

"Where's Barry again?", You asked.
"He went into the speed force, to look for that cure, remember?"
"Damn it.", You curse.

"Y/N? What's happening?"
"XS. She's messing with the timeline."
You started walking off, leaving Caitlin to try and keep up with you.

Eventually, you reach the core, finding XS getting ready to leave.

"Nora! Stop!", You yelled as you walked towards her, grabbing her shoulder. As she turns, you see the tears runnikg down her face.

"Hey. Kiddo? You okay?", You ask.
"I can't stop him! I try to stop him, but every time, someone pays for it! I can't do anything!"

"Nora. Whoa, hey, calm down.", You kneeled down aligning your face with hers.

"Talk to me, kid. Please."
"I wanted to go after him. To stop him so that Barry doesn't need to deal with him anymore after he comes back. He's always on our back! I just want to help!"
"Nora, everyone's doing what they can. Going into a time loop and watching your family and friends getting killed over and over again won't solve anything."

She started crying even more as you hugged her.
"I'm no speedster. So I don't know what is and isn't possible, but this isn't it, Nora."
You tried to calm her down, which started working after a few minutes.
"Did Barry ever give you any advice?"
"Just to slow down once in a while.", She said, through sobs.
"Then do that, kiddo. Slow down. Take your time. We'll get him at one point. I promise."
"But I have a chance to do it now."
"And at what cost?"

She was taken aback by that question and seemed to ponder it for a while.
"I know what to do now. Thanks, Uncle Y/N!"
She quickly hugged you and left.

With that she ran off. Caitlyn walked towards you as you stood with your back to her.
"Giving a child advice again. You keep scoring points, babe."

But you didn't reply. You remembered every loop. Every death. Every time you watched Caitlyn or Frost suffer.
"Babe?"
She passed by you and as she looked into your eyes she saw them shake heavily, as you witnessed every single loop again.
Every scream. Every agony.

"Hey."
As if waking up from a trance, to you it seemed like Caitlyn had just appeared in front of you.
"What's wrong?"
You looked at her. Alive and well.
"I watched you die. Over and over and over. All because she wanted to go after Cicada! I saw your death for over thirty different times."
"Hey. Hey. I know. I know. But it stops now. You made sure of that.", She says as she hugs you tight.
"Why do I remember? Why can I remember all of those times? It doesn't make any sense."
Your breath became uncontrollable. You couldn't even raise your arms to hold your beloved.
"So much death. So much despair. I can still feel the adrenaline fly through my veins. I can't..."
You couldn't get the words out as you saw her deaths again. You could hear her screams still. The agony. The pain.

"No more.", You said.
Caitlyn looked at you, questioningly.
"What are you planning, Y/N?"
"I've had enough of Cicada terrorizing us. Of him dictating what we can and can't do. I'm going to find him and make sure I-"
But you stopped. You remembered the corpse, the one you had killed. You had promised to never do that again. And so you lowered your head.
"Guess I'll have to slow down too, just like the kid, huh?"
Caitlyn smiled as she put her hands on your face.
"Just a little bit. We'll get him. I promise."
You put your forehead on hers.
"Sorry."
"Apology accepted. If... You take us out to dinner."
You smiled as you looked her in the eye.
"Deal."

Thank you for reading my story so far. I really can not understand how this cringy story I decided to start writing a long time ago started to pick up a popularity amongst hundreds, if not thousands. Even though the timing is WAY off (see this is an alternate timeline of sorts) and I didn't do enough research at all. It took me a while to update and probably will take me more than a while, as I'm starting to experience severe writer's block in this one. I'm not sure if the story is still enjoyable, or contains too much filler or things like that. So, for now, thank you and write you guys soon.