out of the blue / n.h

Chapter 74

I get ready as Elle is putting on Harry's clothes and I let her wear Melanie's skinny jeans since she left it here. Although it's kind of irritating for her to wear it, but, she doesn't have anything to wear so I thought I should let her. She puts on her coat thenI put on mine. We drive to TacoBell since she wanted us to.

I stay in the car near the window so I can see them from outside. It's dark and the diner has bright lights on and that pretty is a good thing so I can really see them from outside. I put on the 1975. Her favorite band. Elle comes inside when I see Melanie and Thomas. Sitting, laughing together on the sofa. He wraps his arm around the sofa, around her. Around my baby. I focus my sight on her when her face lits up just by seeing Elle. She stands up and gives her a big hug. How can she be okay with everything we've been through? Am I the only one who's being like this? The grumpy drunken boy who has a desperate hope on a girl that seems incredibly happy without me? Without me. . .

I look like an idiot. I smile and grin at myself just by seeing her laughing and joking around Thomas and Elle. She doesn't even know that Elle was the girl that kissed me. I waste my time looking at them babbling on and on. When is Elle going to talk to her? Or she did and Melanie just acts fine and cool?

Just by then, I see her face drops in such a swift moment. Thomas leans in to Elle, arching his brows tightly as I see Melanie who darts her eyes back to Elle. She nods and smile weakly.

"It's okay." I read her lips as I switch off the engine and start walking down the cold breeze through the snow. I don't bother the weather. I get inside with a cling on the door as Melanie's eyes dart to me. Her eyes are in a full shock as she tries not to cry. I can see all of different emotions through her face. One thing I miss most, Her redden cheeks and nose caused by the breeze.

I stay stiff as I see her standing up from her table and walk past me, out to the parking lot. I chase her down. Thomas and Elle stay inside, letting us have our own private conversation.

"Mel—"

"Niall, don't." She whimpers.

"Let me explain." I let a tear falls down my cheek. She refuses to look at me.

"Fine, explain!" She commands me by shouting.

Now, I don't know what to stay. "First, I—I have to be sorry because I didn't tell you on the first place. I was scared and I didn't even think of using you at first, Melanie. I swear! I like you since the first time we met and that hurts me to hear what those douchebags talked about you. Miles was choosing one of us who is going to use you and I was too stupid that I didn't stand up to defend you, I really was. But then I told them that I'm going to be the one that took your virginity because I don't want any of them touch you!" I start to shake."I'm sorry, baby. Please, I love you." I freeze out of the weather but I don't really give a shit about it because I'm fighting my ass off for the love of my life in front of me.

"Why didn't you just tell me?" She cries.

"Because, I'm scared of losing you." I scratch my hair that I haven't washed for days. "And about Elle—"

"Niall, she told me." She sobs. "But, I can't." She covers her face in her palm. I walk closer to her.

"No! We can, Melanie! If we love each other, we can make things through!" I hold her arms.

"When it's broken, there's nothing to fix." She says.

"We can always be together and fix all of this, Melanie." I grip her shoulders. "Please!" I beg.

"Niall, get off! You smell alcohol, you're drunk!" She jerks off of my grasp but I'm too strong. "Niall, it hurts! Please," When I'm about to let go, an arm pulls me from Melanie. Thomas. "Take me home." She cries into Thomas's embrace.

"Melanie! You're going to pick Thomas over me?" I point to myself.

"Niall, she loves you. She still picks you over me, but you have to let her be." Thomas states as she leads Melanie back to her car. And by then, I feel nothing but dizzy all over me. I breath heavily out of the cold air and the last thing I remember is, I fall onto the cold frozen ground.

She's never said it, she's never said "I love you."