If Im Not In Love

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All Derek's mom had said when he came in from the store and had put the grocery's away was to go upstairs. She hadn't said why, only that Meredith wanted to talk to him and Derek was nervous as he walked up the stairs to their bedroom. He was pretty sure whatever it was was about the baby, but he didn't know exactly what and that made him nervous.

He opened the bedroom door, where Meredith was laying on their bed, like the doctor had instructed, sipping on a can of ginger ale and giggling slightly as she flipped through a magazine that he had bought her earlier in the week.

"Hey..." Derek breathed, shutting the door behind him, not moving far from the doorway.

"Hi." She smiled. Her hair was pulled half up and half down, and her cheeks were flushed slightly.

"My mom said...you wanted to see me."

"Yeah." Meredith closed her magazine. "Come here."

"Okay..." Derek looked back at the door before walking over and sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Put your hand here." She pointed to her abdomen.

"What's going on?"

"I'm pregnant."

"I know..." Derek looked at her curiously as she took his hand and placed it on her stomach.

"Mmm....in there...."

"Our baby." He whispered.

"I'm sorry." Meredith whispered, tilting her head as he kept his hand on her abdomen. His eyes were still sad, but she wanted him to look at her. "I'm sorry..."

"Me too...We...you're right. We should have been more careful."

"We should have but...I was just scared." She whispered, biting her lip before placing her hand over his.

"You're...you want it?" He whispered, looking up from their hands.

"I....yeah...."

"Meredith..." Derek breathed, wrapping his arms around her.

"You...you want it?"

"I want it."

"It's just...Derek I've done this before and it ended badly so..."

"You really want it?" Derek smiled, tears welling up in his eyes.

"Yeah." Meredith whispered. She wanted it. She had never wanted a baby more, but there was something terrifying about all of this. "So..."

"We're having a baby..." He breathed, his lips spreading into a huge smile.

"You got me pregnant."

"I...yeah." Derek laughed, pressing a kiss to her forehead, his hand not moving from her stomach.

"I'm....I'm scared Derek."

"Of what?"

"Of what happens next..."

"We have the room...we can get everything we need..."

"I mean with us...and if I can stay pregnant."

"You don't have to worry about us." He breathed.

"You don't know that."

"You and I...I love you Meredith. No matter what. Baby or not. And we're going to do everything we can...to make sure you and the baby stay healthy until its time."