After the Death Cure 2 ( The Maze Runner )

Chapter 32 | Newt

She drives me crazy.
Does she even love me? What have I ever done to her? I hit my head against the now closed door. I turn around, and slide down the wall. I feel a tear roll down my cheek. All I want is for you to love me...
I know she can't hear me, but I wish she could. I wish I could tell her everything I'm thinking. About how much I love, and care for her. About how much I wish she would love me. About how much it hurts...
I could just be over reacting, though. She kissed me back. But she pulled away... She held my hand when I grabbed it. But she didn't say I love you too...
So many thoughts run through my head as I idly sit on the hard floor. Drowning in my own comfort yet disbelief.
I almost lost her. I'm not sure where the thought came from, but it's true. She could be dead right now. I'd still be in that bloody lockup. I'd still be a Crank.
Hope rebuilds itself inside of me as I think of all of the things she's done for me. I think of the person she has made me. And most importantly, I think of her. Everything about her. The reasons I love her.
I smile at her image when it appears in my brain. Her smile the other day when I tripped while trying to reach her. I make her happy, and she makes me happy.
She doesn't drive me crazy, she keeps me sain.
After a long period of sitting, staring at the other side of the room, I stand to my feet, and prepare for bed. I can't believe that I second guess myself sometimes. Of course she loves me. If she didn't...well, all I can say is: she speaks her mind.
Why can't we leave WICKED? We're done with the bloody experiments.
I lie in my bed, thinking about what life will be like once we get out of here. If we get out of here.
I'm not sure of where the thought came from, but it makes me wonder again...Why can't we leave?
I ponder reasons.

Ava speaks of a "Plan B".

The cure for nightmares still hasn't been found.

There are Cranks out there- ready to kill us.

We'd probably need help rebuilding our homes.

Maybe it's good we're still here. But I'd still like to start a life with Kenzie. Like, a real life. Just me and her. I can't help but smile at the fact that she's my girlfriend.
I eventually drift off to sleep.