When I Met You (GXG)

CHAPTER 49

"N- no Mom! Wake up please! T- this can't be happening!" I shout while crying my heart out, they got into a car accident. The doctors were getting them better, but nothing is happening.

"H- hey! Do something, bakit di ka gumagalaw!?" I asked in the doctor that stopped doing CPR in my mother. He shook his head, he was about to come near me but I shove him away.

"Don't touch me! I don't need help, m- my mother do! P- please... I can't lose her..." I can feel my heart beating so fast, my hands shaking with sweats, and my knees weakening because of what's happening.

I felt someone touched my shoulder, but I pushed him away. I don't need a comfort, I need my mother and my father to be alive. 

As soon as the machine starts beeping continuously, I lost my balance. I cried in my knees while kneeling to the doctor, my head almost touching his shoes. 

"P- please... d- do something." I said pleading to the doctor. I felt my head finally touching his shoes, but again my brother touched my shoulder and pull me from the Doctor. This time I have no strength to shove him away, I don't even know what I'm doing. 

I felt the warm hug my brother gave me, I sob, cried my heart out till there's no tears anymore falling from my eyes. 

"K- kuya... M- mom she-"

"Shhh... I'm here, kuya is always here." he said while caressing my head and my back.

"D- dad, how is he?" I asked when I remember my Dad in the other room. I break the hug and looked at him, he doesn't verbally answer but by the look on his face, he says it all.

Tumayo kaagad ako para pumunta sa kabilang room, I saw nurses fixing and removing the things they put to him. My hands went to my mouth, I can't believe what's happening. Please... please wake me up from this dream.

I can't live without them. 

"LY NO!" the cutter in my hand fell in the floor when I heard my brother shouted. He immediately went to me and then hugged me tightly. 

Hindi ko alam kung ano bang nasa isip ko kanina, pero nang marealize ko ang binabalak ko agad akong nangiyak sa takot. Wala akong maramdaman kanina, parang wala ako sa katinuan habang hawak ko ang cutter. Wala din akong matandaan na mga ala ala, bago ko hawakan ang panusok.

I started getting scared on what will happen to me further. Clearly there's something wrong with me, and if my brother didn't find me I maybe covered in blood right now.

"L- ly... no... you can't leave me. I know it's hard, but we will get through it." I felt the pain in his voice. I'm sad, I'm crying but there's no tears anymore. Dahil ubos na ubos na ako.

"I don't want to live like this anymore. Feeling like I just want to die everyday, feeling like there's no more reason for me to live." 

"Just let me go, kuya." saying whatever's on my mind. 

"Ly no!" 

"ZEN, babe... hey, wake up please."

I immediately hugged her when I woke up. Hinimas niya ang aking likod habang ako ay hindi makontrol ang emosyon. Pagkatapos kong pakalmahin ang aking sarili, agad akong humiwalay sa kaniya upang makausap siya.

"I'm sorry Aiko-"

"Stop saying sorry, you have no fault in all of these things that are happening to you." she gave me a kiss in my forehead. She hold my arms and then she slowly sat on my lap. She put my arms around her waist, while hers are wrapped on my neck.