MY Yesterday and Forever

10 - Realizations & Complications

Finally, you get to enter his place since you've decided to spend as much time with him as you possibly can. It's small but clean and comfortable which is the complete opposite of what he told you before. 

Inside, there's  a second hand keyboard, a desktop computer, and a guitar which he uses for his work.  He has a mattress on the floor where you lay, as you try to learn how to read the books from his mini collection while he's away working. 

On his day off from the club, you stay with him until past midnight. The day after the picnic, you almost threw your restraints away about having sex with him and yet managed to stop him from going beyond his boundaries. He finally voiced out the question that's been in his mind since he met you.

"Why don't you want to have sex with me?" 

You remain silent as you drew imaginary patterns on his plain green bed covering. He lifts your face up so you'd look at him. You know you have to speak up because he might start thinking it's him in particular you're trying to avoid sex with.

"It's um," He caught  your eyes after you dodged from looking at him and as always, you can't look away.

"It's not you in particular. It's just um, I uh" You clear your throat. "I've never done it with anyone yet." You quietly admitted. "In school, I don't know if the guys I've dated seriously liked me so I tried not to give in." 

He doesn't speak a word but nods his head slowly. "I understand. I will respect your decision then." He gives you a sweet smile before kissing your forehead.

You feel embarrassed for what you just admitted. You've always acted very confident when it comes to making out as you try to cover the fact that you are still a virgin. 

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Your appointment for your tattoo was at 10:30 am, and Yoongi takes you to his friend's house. The couple Hajoon and  Mika were friendly and even joked over the fact that finally, Yoongi has proven that his girlfriend really exists. Getting a couple's tattoo is a cherry on top.

You were the first one to go and Yoongi stayed by your side. Hajoon politely excused himself after Mika have finished the stencil she made for your tattoo. She asks you to sit on the chair laying it back at the proper angle.

You remove your shirt and you hear Mika cluck her tongue. You didn't miss the glare she shoots at Yoongi after seeing the marks he left your body. He simply raised an eyebrow at her before a smirk appears on his lips.

All the preparations were made and Mika tells you to get ready. You flinch when you hear the tattoo pen start. You didn't expect Yoongi's hand to reach out to hold yours. Mika looks at your joined hands and you can tell she has a smile on even if she had a mask on. The pen hits your skin and you jump up in surprise. Mika pulls her hand back and asks you to relax. 

"Look at me Y/N." Yoongi whispers. You did what he asked you and though your eyes squint and your hand holds his tighter as you feel the pen move over your skin, you feel comforted. He managed to take you to a different place with just his gaze. You barely felt any pain at all. Looking in his eyes takes you to a comforting place where pain is nonexistent, this is when you realize you love this man in front of you. The next realization only shocks you for a bit, for when he bends his head to kiss your hand right after the whole session is over, you know he's moved your world upside down. You'll do anything and give everything for him.

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The next day, when you announce that you're leaving the house after lunch, your dad is anything but happy. Of course, Aunt Eun-Sil takes that moment to make him angrier.