MY Yesterday and Forever

45 - When it Rains, It Pours

This is so unbelievable; your mind couldn't wrap itself around what you just witnessed. You know Matt and Dylan met when they were in high school, but they got close when they went to university. It all made sense to you know. How Dylan's parents didn't like his friendship with Matt. That Matt was always one step ahead of you when it concerns Dylan. How Matt seems upset when you were in New York and Dylan had been giving you all the attention. The text messages Dylan kept on reading at the restaurant while Matt was on his phone too. That night when you argued, it's not a mystery to you anymore where he was the whole time.

"Don't get mad at him, it's not his fault. Be mad at me, Y/N." Dylan said softly.

You shake your head slowly as you finally turned to both of them. They at least had the decency to wear a shirt and boxers on.

"Honestly Dylan, I don't know what I am feeling right now. But one thing is for sure because what I just saw sealed this decision." You slide the ring out of your finger. Dylan gasps and steps forward trying to make you wear it back again.

"Please, don't." He pleaded.

You shake your head. "It's what's best because it wouldn't make sense if I am still going to keep it. It was bound to happen anyway." You take Dylan's hand so you can place the ring in there.  A part of your heart felt torn as you did this because you've loved this man before you too. He was able to make you feel happy again after having gone through the lowest point of your life. You were set to call off your engagement earlier but not because of this reason. 

"Both of you are free to do whatever you want to do." You tell them before you left. Matt is getting transferred to New York too. They've planned this all along. You stay in LA, and they'll continue living their secret life away from you. Who's the bigger cheater now? You ask yourself. It didn't really matter, you conclude, both of you cheated. Dylan wins though because he didn't lose the person he wants to be with while you've let go of yours. 

You didn't call anyone when you got home. For once, your twin isn't with you in your distress. She's preoccupied with the things that are happening in her own life, which is totally fine. You lay in bed thinking of Dylan. Earlier, he tried to stop you from leaving his place because he said the two of you needed to talk. You felt that it is not the time to do that yet, so you refused. A lot of things that happened before made sense to you now. Things that you've overlooked or ignored because you thought it was all just normal and nothing out of the ordinary.  

You cried yourself to sleep because what you'd dreaded just happened. You've lost the men you loved. Yes, you are now free, but you can't just walk up to Yoongi and say, "Hey, my engagement is over, so let's get back together again and live happily ever after."  He is in a middle of a world tour, and you've already concluded before that you'd just be weighing him down if you were with him. Besides you feel like you need to reset everything before you start your life over. This was the last thought in your mind before you fell asleep.

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You told your sister and Aunt Beth about what happened between you and Dylan. You didn't hold back anything, as you also mentioned what you've witnessed in Dylan's bedroom. They will find out sooner or later when Matt and Dylan come out in the open.   

"I was never a fan of his, but wow, that was totally unexpected. Now it makes sense why he wants you to be a certain way. It's hard to explain but if we've read between the lines, we'd be finding out about it." Kylee said as she strokes your hair. She feels bad for you, for two consecutive weeks you've gone through so much. 

A week later, you face Dylan. He openly cried for the first time since you've met him. He said how sorry he was, and you felt bad for him. He had trapped his real self for so long because he wanted to fight what he was feeling. He said he thought that everything has gone normal when he met you and really fell in love with you. But Matt worked in the same company as him and the inevitable just happened. He proposed to you because he thought it'll make things better for him, but it didn't. He didn't want to leave you, so he decided to live a double-standard kind of life. With Matt in New York, and you in LA. He said he thought he'd come up with a clear decision in time. You can relate to him in that aspect, and you feel sick in your stomach because, in a way, both of you were using each other. Despite all this, you can't make yourself to stay mad with Dylan. He promised you that he'll be there when you need him, and you can be friends. You don't hold a grudge against him because you were not the perfect girlfriend in the end either.