MY Yesterday and Forever

INTRODUCTION

"A ray of light that cut through my shadow,

You who overturned my dark life

Maybe I am nothing, before I met you I was nobody

Before that my life was just about rushing to get through the day

Our day our night our lives

You are my light, friends who support each other, each other's anchor"

     - Suga's rap translated in English, from the song Blueberry Eyes  by Max

"Y/N, you have a lot of questions to answer from me. I was going to wake you up last night if you didn't  lock your bedroom. Why would you do that?  Is it because you're guilty that's why you're trying to avoid me?" Your sister Kylee fires at you the minute you start walking down the stairs on a Saturday morning.

You head straight to the coffee machine and immediately load it with a coffee pod before you answer her.

"Good morning to you too." 

The truth is that you are trying to avoid your sister, because she's been making it a habit of barging into your room every night even if you're sleeping, on a weeknight. You needed to rest after 3 consecutive nights of having to listen to whatever her issue for the day was. It's also a weekend and you deserve to get all the sleep you can get.

Kylee motions with her hands for you to answer her question. You, on the other hand, cross your arms before you as you stare back at her. It's almost like you're looking at your reflection in the mirror really because of your resemblances except for your eye color. Yours is a greyish green while hers is light grey. Twins runs in your family, from your mom down to your grandmother, you all have twins. 

"I locked my doors because I needed to rest after you've been keeping me up so late on a weeknight. That I am guilty of, but for other reasons, I can't really say because I have no idea what the hell you're talking about." You tell her just as the coffee machine beeps, so you start pouring your first coffee for the day.

"I just need my sister to listen to my rants, is that wrong? You are the only family I've got ever since Aunt Beth got married and moved. I thought you'd understand that." Kylee replies while pouting her lips.

You roll your eyes, she is so good at this, guilt tripping is her thing. "I didn't say it's wrong, I'm just saying maybe we can talk earlier. I also need to rest."

"I know that and I am sorry for keeping you up late, I just needed to talk to someone."  She repeated.

You sip your coffee before replying. "Find yourself a boyfriend again."

She leans back at her chair. "Not just yet. You know I'm taking a sabbatical from dating after my last failed relationship." She paused before she continued. 

" Besides, I am so loaded up with work I can't even come home early let alone be in a relationship. I love my job, plus, my position has it's perks like meeting a lot of people specially celebrities but damn, it comes with a price." 

She pauses as she watch you drink your coffee. 

"Speaking of which, let's go back to the question I am going to ask you about."

You sigh because you just want this conversation done and over with. You still need to do your Saturday routine so you ask. "What question?" 

Kylee copied your position earlier, she crosses her arms before her then goes on with her question. 

"Agust D, the rapper, why did he call your name when he saw me? He is a vip in our hotel and you know it's my job to welcome guests like him." She tells you.

You tilt your head as you try to think. You were an interpreter for three years and you have worked with a number of celebrities, but the name Agust D doesn't seem familiar to you.

"Who?" You ask your sister and she makes a sound of disbelief at your response.

"You're seriously going to play innocent here?"

You take another drink from your coffee to calm yourself, you need it because you're so close to snapping at your sister. Patience is something you struggled with before and now that you're an adult, you have developed this attitude quite well. 

"I am not playing innocent. I honestly do not know who this Agust D is." You tell her calmly.

Kylee gives an exasperated sigh as she takes her phone and scrolls until she stands up and shoves it in front of your face.

You push her hand back because you cannot see anything since she literally shoved her phone right in front of your nose. You are so close to getting mad at your twin. Still, you adjust her hand at the proper distance until you see a picture of a blond guy standing next to your twin. He wasn't looking at the camera, his head was turned and had his eyes on Kylee instead. Your sister doesn't seem to be aware of it because she's looking at the camera with a smile on her face.

"I don't know this dude, sorry. Maybe you heard him wrong." You tell her as you finish drinking your coffee, you decide to have another round because you need to wake your senses up and you sister is driving you crazy on a weekend. 

Kylee shakes her head. "I asked him why he knows you and he only shake his head with a smile like he knows something I don't. Obviously, I do not know because here I am asking you."

"I'm sorry but I really do not remember meeting him ever." You tell your sister. Then something snaps in your brain, and you snatch the phone from Kylee's hand, you zoom it in. You swipe to the next picture, and you see a clearer shot of his entire face. You gasp. You do know him; he is someone from your past you tried so hard to forget. Yoongi.