MY Yesterday and Forever

21 - Truth and Consequence

As you give him a smile, it feels as if something heavy had been lifted off your chest. For the first time today, this is you smiling at him. "I am sorry too for being angry at you."

"Why would you be sorry when you're only reacting to what I did?" He asks as he too smiles.

"Because I've thought and said bad things behind your back." You confess.

He shakes his head. "That's normal." His smile disappears as he touches the engagement ring on your finger. "You're happy with this new love of yours?"

Your eyes drop to the fingers that are touching your ring. Somehow, it felt uncomfortable but you answer honestly anyway. "I am."

"When are you getting married?" He asks you.

"We haven't talked about it yet. He left for a work assignment after he proposed, so we haven't gotten into any serious planning about our wedding." He's still playing with the ring on your finger so you clear your throat before deciding to pull your hand away. You still keep the distance you had from him though, you simply placed your hands on your lap.

"How about you? Is there anyone? You and Kitty, what's that?" You watch him avoid your eyes as he stares blankly at the pattern of the throw pillow on your couch.

"It's not serious. It'll probably pass after the promotion is over. Kate just like's to play." He answers.

You can't help but notice how he uses Kitty's real name. She is known for getting involved with most of the men she works with so perhaps he is right. "So does that mean you're wishing that she isn't just playing?" 

He shakes his head as he ruffles his hands through his hair. "Nah, nothing like that at all. I don't have the time for any serious relationship right now. All these years all I ever did was work. I always need to come up with new material. Even if I am taking a break, my mind still thinks of work."

"Maybe you should take a relaxing break after this tour. No work just total relaxation. Go somewhere you've always wanted to go." You suggest as you continue to watch him feeling more relaxed now. 

He looks at you briefly and your eyes meet. You can't really read what's in them, but they were almost sad. You can be wrong, he's achieved all his dreams so he can't be sad. 

"Maybe I will do that." He tells you as he looks away. 

"Anyway, I am happy you got what you wanted with your career. Look at you now Mr. Big Shot." You tease him.

He scrunches his nose as you complimented him. "It didn't come easy. I gained all these but I..." He paused before continuing. "...lost you."

You stiffen again at your chair and he smirks at your reaction. 

"It is the truth. I had this silly notion that when we come face to face again, you're still waiting for me. As I said, it's a silly thought because who will do that right?" 

You drop your gaze and it lands on your ring again. You find yourself thinking if you should've waited for him. How can you when he never even attempted to talk to you? No, you made the right decision because otherwise, you could've waited your whole life. You can't help feeling a stabbing pain in your heart over his words though.

Yoongi lifts your chin up so you'd face him. He is smiling as he looks at you. "I didn't say that to make you feel uncomfortable. I just wanted that off my chest because I am just letting everything I have in me out. I can only do that with you Y/N." 

"Well, what you said just made me feel uncomfortable. Like how the hell am I supposed to react to that? Now I am the one who feels guilty." You retort which made him laugh.