MY Yesterday and Forever

41 - Mianhe 미안해

You woke up early the next day and made some serious thinking. Enough of the crying, you tell yourself. You need to start finding a solution to all of these mess you've created. You watch the sky turn from dark gray to red orange as the sun had risen. By that time, you already have come up with an answer. It's not an easy decision but it is the right one.

A knock came at your door and when you open it, one of the hotel staff had a bouquet of flowers in his hand. Your heart leaps when you see the 'I'm Sorry' card. You read it as soon as you closed the door.

Babe.

I'm sorry for walking out on you. I did some thinking, and I am owning up to this mistake.

Let's talk about our wedding when you get back to LA. I will wait for you.

I am sorry and I love you.

Dylan

You feel the tightness in your throat after reading this. You start looking for a flight that'll take you back home after the concert is over. Yoongi and his team will leave tomorrow afternoon. You'd like to leave first thing in the morning. You do not want to have to see them go.

You just finished booking your flight when you hear the door beep, you didn't double lock it because you've always been hoping for Yoongi to come back. When the door opens, you see him, and he seems to be surprised to see you already up.

He looks at the laptop in front of you which is still on the page of your flight's confirmation. He stands before you.

"You're leaving tomorrow?" He asks you.

"Yes." You reply. "You're leaving tomorrow too."

He suddenly reaches out to trace the shadows under your eyes. You may have gone to bed early last night, but you couldn't say it was a relaxing sleep. 

"I heard you've been crying after you went with your fiancée. What happened?" He asks you with a scowl.

You look at him, he's part of the reason why you've been crying. You thought he won't be speaking with you anymore and yet here he is acting as if yesterday didn't happen at all. There's something in the way he looks at you that gets you feeling all the tears you said you don't want to shed come back. 

You were hesitant to speak at first because of a lot of reasons but having regrets is the last thing you want to have. You can tell him to fuck off and just get mad at him again and leave the next day. But then that'll leave you back to just like you have been before all these; you and Yoongi have gone past that stage. You have given yourself to him even if you shouldn't, and now that you're facing its consequence, you do not want to shut him out.  So, you tell him the fight that you had, withdrawing certain parts because you find it's not right to share it even with him. You saw a rerun of the movie 'Titanic" on tv the other day, and you can't forget the line that Rose said when she got old. 'A woman's heart is a deep ocean of secrets.'  Your ocean of secrets already has a lot in them.

You mention to him that Dylan already has apologized but the guilty feeling in you still lingers. "It's my fault Yoongi, I hate myself for everything. I know I've hurt you too and I'm so..."

"Shhh." He tells you as he puts a finger over your lips. "Please don't say sorry to me. I played a part in this too." He wipes the tears that were falling down your face. "I owe you an apology for being a complete dickhead to you yesterday. I wanted to come and see you last night, but I chickened out." 

Yoongi pulls you into his arms and you hug him tightly as you sobbed over everything that happened and over the things you had to do. 

"Y/N, please stop crying." He tells you as he rubs your back in an attempt to comfort you. "I don't want to see you looking like this, I know that you're a strong person"