MY Yesterday and Forever

27 - Just Friends

You look at the door that closed then turned to Yoongi. "Why did she leave?"

"I asked her if I could have a few minutes with you." He said as he shoves his hands into his pants pockets. He was wearing a black shirt, and a pair of black loose cargo pants. He walks closer to you.

Your eyes go back towards the door. "If someone walks in and sees us alone, they might get the wrong idea."

"They won't, noona, and hyung are outside making sure of it. Everyone knows I want some time by myself before a show. Strictly no interruptions." He replies with a smirk.

He's so close to you that you can smell his minty breath on your face. You step back but he holds on to your shoulders. "Stop moving away from me whenever I try to get close to you, please." He tells you.

"Why are you doing this?" You ask slowly because there seems to be a different vibe in the air since you've walked in. 

"Right now, I just needed to be with someone I feel grounded with. Having you next to me feels comforting. I usually ask for some time to be by myself because I need to redirect my thoughts to get my jitters away. " He explains.

With his proximity temporarily forgotten, you remembered how you promised to be his friend. You promised that you'll always be here for him to give your full support, this is what he is asking from you. Silly of you for thinking it's something else.

"I will always be here to support you specially after we've cleared things between us. I am proud of what you've achieved and who you've become, Yoongi. You do not need to worry about anything. I've seen you at rehearsals and you are great. I bet you'll do even better out there tonight. I'm here not just because I have to because I work for you, but also to support you as your friend." You meet his eyes, and you smile up at him. 

When he doesn't smile back, you worry that you did a lousy job in lifting his spirits. He said having you near him gives him comfort, but, looking at him right now, that doesn't seem to be the case.

"I thought you said having me around makes you feel relaxed. You look anything but at ease right now. You said we can be honest with each other; so tell me what seems to be bothering you? Maybe I can help."

"It's because I need more." He replies almost inaudibly.

"Uh, what?" You thought you didn't hear him correctly that is why you asked. The way he looks at you made you feel uneasy.

The corners of his lips lift up as he holds back a smile, and you can't help but wonder what he's thinking of right now.

"Is it ok if I ask you for a hug?" Oh, that's what he wants, you tell yourself. You feel ridiculous for thinking it was something else. He wants you to have a choice this time as his hands remain inside his pants' pockets. The last time he hugged you, he just went for his instincts and grabbed you. 

You look at him, he looks lost, not the confident, nonchalant artist he always shows the world. Your conversation over the phone comes back to you. He opened up how he feels about what comes with his success. How he feels alone even if he is surrounded with people. Earlier, he said that you make him feel grounded, maybe it's because you're a familiar face from his past before he became who he is now.  You've been with him for the past days, and you only see the person that he is, whether he is on, or off stage.

But you're starting to get scared of how he is making you feel. You got jealous with Mi-Na when you're not supposed to. His eyes makes every part of you tingle and you feel your heartbeat go wild when he is close just like what you're feeling right now.

You feel connected again with him somehow as you sense the burden he has on his shoulders, of having to meet people's expectations all the time. That isn't easy and that is what made you close the space you had between you. You wrap your arms around his waist, resting your cheeks against his chest. You hear his heartbeat pounding almost as hard as yours. You feel his arms go around you, bringing you closer to him.