MY Yesterday and Forever

51- Jeju

An announcement had been made by the company where Namjoon, Hoseok, and Yoongi are under. 'The Triple Threat will be making a reunion concert'. This was an idea that had gotten pitched in by the fan you and Yoongi met in New York. It's finally taking place and it created a stir among the fans and the entertainment industry as well. The three of them were known for their superb performances and talents; combining them would result in a show that everyone would like to witness.

You feel excited because it has been a while since they last performed together. You remember watching a clip of their performance at an awards show two years ago, and it brought the house down.

However, you didn't see Yoongi again with Mrs. Kang. He must be busy making the preparations. Your cousin mentions that she sees less of her boyfriend too because he was constantly in a meeting for the concert. 

Ever since you saw Yoongi at the center, you've been constantly thinking about him. Not that you've thought about him less before, it's just that you start to see how you are with him from another perspective. You admit you're too stubborn and proud to make the initiative so that you can talk with him about yourself and about what happened to you and Dylan. You already know you brought this to yourself and that is what has been eating you the whole time. You're too busy licking your wounds and feeling sorry for yourself. You retreated further into your shell when you found out about Crystal being pregnant. 

When you planned to have sex with Yoongi, you thought he'd use protection, but you had that spur-of-the-moment decision to throw caution and you had unprotected sex. Deciding to do that was like playing Russian Roulette especially when you skipped a day of taking your pill. Even if you took precautions the next day, there's this constant what if thought in your mind. 

But you didn't get pregnant and you found out about Crystal. You're jealous and almost wished that it had been you instead.  You can't help but wonder what it would be like to have his child.  How would Yoongi take it? Would you even let him know? You know your family would love the child no matter what. But will he? It'll create a big scandal in his career for sure. Just like with Crystal right now, what if people find out? He seems to be ready for it. If it had been you, he might probably be the same. IF, it was you, but it isn't. 

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Your grandmother was appointed to lead a group on a tour in Jeju Island. This was at the other center your grandmother goes to. You'd be going with them of course, even if you're the only one who is less than sixty years old in the group. You don't mind that since you've only been there as a child with your sister and parents. You remember how your mother used to love that place. It's good to relive those happy memories you had as a child.

You arrive at Jeju Island and you can't help but admire the place. It looks different from what you've remembered. The flight was packed because it was going to be a holiday that Monday so most people decided to take that Friday off and head to the island. It didn't dampen anyone's mood though, it only made them more excited. 

One of the ladies who joined you was quite upset because her husband canceled going with her last minute. Your grandmother promised her she'd be with her the whole time so she won't feel alone. 

You check in a hotel next to the beach. Your grandmother tells you that she will be sharing with Mrs. Wang while you will share rooms with Elin when she arrives. She volunteered to join you although she's not arriving until the next day. That meant you will be alone in your room that night. 

Your hotel room has a sliding door that overlooks the beach. You can stay here the whole day and just watch the picturesque view that is before you. The view is so serene it's healing. It heals you from all the pain you've gone through, from breaking up your engagement, losing your father, and completely losing Yoongi to Crystal. A girl can only take so much but here you are still standing, scarred but not broken. You're brave enough to take on a new life here in this country. The country that makes half of who you are. It used to be just a vacation place for you, but now it's more than that. Being around the people at the center made you see more about the culture too.