MY Yesterday and Forever

28 - Concert & Movie

The arena was packed, and all the fans were in high spirits as they waited for the concert to start. When the lights from the stage go off, there was a deafening sound of screams until the music starts playing and the dancers appear on the stage. Yoongi emerges through the stage lift, wearing a dark blue jacket, from the company he is endorsing, over his black shirt. He starts rapping and you see a different side of him, Agust D in the flesh, giving everything he's got as the crowd cheers and dances, his charisma oozing out of him. His eyes had the spark which showed his passion for his craft. Seeing his videos online is nothing compared to seeing him in person, you've got goosebumps and you just want to cry because he is so damn good. 

A different level of admiration flows out of you as you watch him. People sang along and danced to the upbeat song he performed. When he paused for a break, he walks closer to where you were and starts talking. You can see the beads of sweat that roll at the side of his face and neck, which he gently dabs with a towel. After you finish your job translating for him, he continues with his performance.

You were backstage when he went for a fifteen-minute break. He was drenched in sweat, and he takes deep breaths as Kyung-Mi, Hyeri and Yeo-Jin follows him. He had changed from his shirt and jacket to a white long-sleeved shirt that had a logo at the back. The very same shirt Kyung-Mi had been talking about earlier.  That shirt is now plastered to his body from his sweat, his tattoo in full display. He still has it and you had to look away, too conscious of the fact that it's your initials on his chest. The filming team is documenting everything, so you're pretty sure many people will see, unless they cut that part out. His eyes meet yours and he gives you a small smile before he steps inside his dressing room. You can't help feeling worried about him, wondering if he can still do another forty-five minutes of all that again. You've seen the dance moves he had to do not to mention singing and rapping while walking around the huge stage. It's no joke at all. 

When he comes back on the stage, later on, a new energy comes out of him as he performs 'Crushed'. He didn't have to say it, but you know this song was made for you. Every line speaks to you and you can feel the turmoil he also has gone through. It's good to you were not the only one who suffered because of your separation. Now he wants you back, you got reminded of his words earlier. It's not fair for Dylan, you told yourself because he didn't do anything wrong.  You are committed to him, and you can't just change your mind because of Yoongi, you feel torn.

When the performance with Kitty came up, the crowd got louder. You're not bothered by their hot dance together although Kitty dared to grab Yoongi's hand to touch her body rather than what they've rehearsed where he keeps it a distance away. Yoongi didn't show any sign of surprise as he continued with their performance. 

It was the third to the last song, so you decide to head backstage since David had asked you to be ready because they were expecting people to come and speak with Yoongi after. You caught Kitty still backstage getting her pictures taken.

"That number is so damned hot I think I creamed my panties." She giggles as she walks towards her dressing room.

You wanted to retch after hearing it, you don't know why. You have to admit that Yoongi on the stage is hot. His sex appeal just flows, you felt it get to you whether you'd like to admit it or not. It brought you back to the first time you met him, you were drawn to him so bad while he was performing on stage, you were the one who dared to make the first move on him. You were so rash about things back then, what were you thinking? You asked yourself. Dylan always pointed that he didn't like your boldness. He wants you to be demure, shy, and timid kind, including in bed. You feel that he is right, that sometimes you act on instinct without giving much thought and you suffer its consequences later on.