MY Yesterday and Forever

24 - Get Real

It's 10 p.m. and you wonder if it's too late that he's already sleeping. One more ring, you tell yourself, if he doesn't pick up, you're hanging up. Your finger grazes towards the end call when he answers. His camera was off but his face, later on pops up as he turns his camera on. It's a bit dark and he's obviously in bed already.

"Oh my god, did I wake you? Sorry. I'm just returning your call." You tell him. 

He rubs his eyes before he speaks. "I'm in bed but don't feel sleep coming to me yet. I couldn't think of anyone to call but you. I hope I didn't interrupt anything."

"No, not really. I can talk. Aren't you tired after all that practice you had to do earlier? I didn't know you can dance that good, by the way." You chuckle as you lean against the headboard of your bed.

Yoongi laughs, sounding a bit embarrassed over her compliment. "Yeah well, I got to do what I have to do, it's part of the performance." He paused before speaking again. "Are you tired? If you want to go to sleep, just tell me."

"I'm fine. I did say I am here when you need me so here I am." You reply. 

He snickers at your reply. "That's good to know. Sometimes, it gets sad when I feel like talking with someone and there's no one I can talk to. I am surrounded by a lot of people, but I feel alone. It's hard to explain."

Your eyebrows knot in worry over his words. You can feel how heartfelt his words had been and you suddenly feel like you just want to hug him. "A lot of people like you Yoongi. I am sure if you open up with one of them, they'll listen to you."

He shakes his head. "People like Agust D. I tried to date girls once, but they only see Agust D in me. They do not see who I really am. Girls like Kitty, want to be with that side of me who is famous and doing all those hit songs because fame makes people hot and desirable. More than once, I tried to show some of the people who tell me they're my friends and the women who tell me they love me, who the real me is and they get turned off. They don't want that."

The more he speaks, the more your heart gets touched. "Maybe someday, someone will get to like who you really are."

"Maybe." He sighs. "Thank you, Y/N."

"What for?" You ask.

"For everything. Honestly, when I feel down and low, I think of the times we used to be together. All the things you told me, how you believed in me and accepted me back then, and for still being there now. Even if you're mad at me, I am glad you tell me what's on your mind."  

"What about Namjoon and Hoseok they are your friends, right?" You ask him. "What happened to the other guys we used to hang out with before?"

"They're busy with their own careers. Spending time with them makes me feel happy too."  He sits up from his bed and runs a hand through his hair.

"Whoa, you dyed your hair back to black again." You gasp. How could you not have noticed it right away? 

He continues to ruffle his hair with his fingers as he answers.

"Yeah, that's the plan for the concert, to change my hair color and surprise the fans."

"It will be a pleasant surprise. You look great." You unconsciously commented.

He gives a one sided smile as he looks at you through the screen.

"You think so?" He asks. 

Your slip of the tongue got you stuttering.

"Uh, yeah, of course. They're expecting you to be blonde and coming out with your black hair is unexpected, right?"

He tries to cover his smile with a cough to make you less embarrassed.