Second Best(2yeon/Najeong version)

Fat and Old

Nayeon

" Do you have any questions, Ms. Park?" Mr. Popa asks.

He's the liaison sent by our insurance company who plans to guide me through the paperwork.

" I am not sure" I mumble. In all honesty I haven't heard a word that he's said.

" If she has any questions is there a number where she can reach you?" Jeongyeon asks from beside me.

She's been here almost everyday making sure I go through one more thing on my list. Hell she even made the list. I don't look at it though. I get up and make sure everyone is fed. I can't worry about all this other crap because it doesn't matter. Well I guess this part does. I am not working yet and have no income coming in. I need to take care of everything but I keep worrying about functioning. Then Jeongyeon came in and make me handle it all.

" Sure here's my card. Ms. park once we get the forms signed the sooner we can get the money moved over. Its imperative we get this process started. A lot of time has already lapsed" He hands me the card.

" Thank you Mr. Popa. We'll be in touch" Jeongyeon shakes his hand and walks him to the door.

I feel her sit beside me and she pulls me against her. I take the comfort she offers and lean into her.

" This will get easier, right?" I ask.

Of course no one knows. Even the wives who lost their husbands tell me it does and yet it doesn't. Amy lost her husband last year in a fire fight and she said every day she wonders how she gets up and breathes. Jillian said the only way she finally felt human again was when she got rid of almost anything Parker touched btu I can't do that. Making it like he never existed wouldn't make my pain go away. But handling all the death paperwork and dealing with putting him to rest.... this is what hurts.

" I am not sure" Jeongyeon replied honestly. Thank god for that. She never lies to me or tells me what I want to hear. She gives it to me straight and yet is never hurtful. These last two weeks I have come to rely on her more than I ever thought possible. her friendship means the world to me.

" Yeah me either."

" Why don't we get Emma and go do something?" She suggests.

I gaze into her eyes and see the excitement. She's been here everyday for the last two weeks and has done nothing but care for me in some form or another. Here is this single very good looking woman who has put her life on hold for her best friends widow.

" You don't have to babysit me. I'll be fine."

Her mouth falls slightly slack.

" Am I bothering you?"

" No!" I exclaim.

" you are single, you don't need to be spending time with me."

" Shut up. you are loads of fun. I mean where else could I get to meet a woman who's not trying to get in my pants?"

I burst out giggling.

" Happens often huh?"

Jeongyeon tilts in conspiratorially " Well I don't mean to brag but I have been known to break a few hearts..... and beds."

" Breaking beds because you are a fat ass doesn't count."

Her face falls and she looks genuinely affronted. Next think I know she tears her shirt off. I have known her for years seen her in a bathing suit more times than I can count but there's something different in this moment but I'll never let her know.

" Fat? Show me!" She challenges me.

I stand and poke her side.

" What you didn't giggle like the dough when I poke you?"