Second Best(2yeon/Najeong version)

Step towards move on

Nayeon

" Knock, Knock" I hear Jihyo call as she opens my door.

" What's up my love?" I ask my voice radiating with delight.

" You are awful perky this morning" She looks at me skeptically.

I am starting new outlook from this day forward. I can continue to be sad and mopey or I can remember Jinyoung as the man he was. The husband, sailor and hero not the martyr I have made him. I go back to work in a few weeks, I have a great support system. Its time to start taking baby steps.

" Well, who wouldn't smile at your beautiful face?" I ask sweetly.

" Could it be the sex on a stick outside fixing the shed?" She looks out the window as she moans.

" God, she isn't real. They sent her to toy with us."

Looking behind her I suppress a groan. She'll take that as something its not. But seriously holy shit. Her back is taut as she lifts the two by four and then nails it into place. Her arms flex and I gawk. She wipes her brow as the sweat trickles down her face and I fight the urge to keep looking. I turn my head but my eyes stay glued to her.

Jihyo clears her throat and stares at me with her brow raised.

" Well, well, well. What do we have here?"

" Nothing, what?" I pretend to sound confused at what she saw.

" Right, Nothing at all."

" Nope, Nothing to see here."

She looks back out the window.

" There's plenty to see my friend, Plenty indeed."

I need to flip the attention.

" Did anyone ever tell you, you are a horny housewife who needs a job?"

" A few times. Tzuyu appreciates that I can shop without buying."

I laugh and slap her arm.

" Yeah its about the only thing you don't buy."

she looks away and snorts.

" Accurate, I am also not buying your diversion. I saw you eating her alive."

" No, I am not even ready to go there. Lets change the subject, okay?"

" No, not until you admit she's hot."

" Why does it matter if I think she's hot?" I scoff.

Jihyo smiles and puts her hands on her hips.

" Admit it."

" Fine I won't deny it. She's hot."

" I knew you thought so" She smirks.

I roll my eyes and smother the desire to choke her.

" Besides if you deny it, I would be worried" She laughs.

" How about while Emma is sleeping we can do some stuff around here?"

I look at the mantel and my heart falters. I can feel him everywhere and I am not ready to lose that. Already I have lost so much. Just pulling into my drive without his car there will be one more reminder. Loss and anger are at war in me. I am mad at everyone and everything but then I have to go on day by day. I don't get to sulk and be sad because there's a tiny baby that we made together. I close my eyes and think of him.

" Sure" the words falls out.

We spent the next few hours cleaning papers and things around the house. I am sweating and huffing from carrying all the boxes up and down the stairs. Its been a long day and I look like hell but feel a little lighter. We have got things organized and as much as I want to stop, I also want to keep going. I worry the strength I have harnessed will be lost tomorrow.