Second Best(2yeon/Najeong version)

Finally Talking like Two People

Nayeon

I stand here as she turns the corner before allowing myself to truly feel what just happened my body is stiff and my chest heaves her desert camouflage uniform is taut and she adjusts her cover how I wish I could trade it for her jeans and beanie it would mean she wasn't putting her life in danger but that's not who she is and I knew this doesn't make it any easier because my heart is sitting on a plane.

This is pure hell.

Jihyo walks over and places her hand on my shoulder" Each time I promise myself I'll stay home yet I can't stay away" I turn with tears in my eyes as we both grab each other and hold on.

" I hate this I forgot how much I hate this" I cry against her shoulder and she stains my shirt with her tears.

She sniffs" I never really forget I just block it out" Jihyo pulls back.

" How can I miss her so much already?"

" Because you love her as soon as Tzuyu walks away I start to years for her" she says longingly.

I know what she means" Its like we know we can't have them so we want them even more."

She nods" I always want him home but it feels like even when he's home we are gearing up for our next deployment."

" Sometimes even when they are not active it feels like that" I muse, I think my life was worse once Jinyoung chose to separate from the military while he wasn't deploying anymore a part of him was missing.

Jihyo turns to me and points to the plane" They are built differently they love differently and they need different things we are the same way this is the life we know and while some may not understand it.... we do our love is stronger than most couples and you and Jeongyeon are no different."

I see Jeongyeon enter the plane and the door shut behind her I want to run and kiss her one more time but I know it won't ever be enough there will always be times of missed moments we could have had she's right though we love differently and we accept that our lives aren't up to us.

" How do I do this as the girlfriend?" I ask Jihyo I have always been the wife I was privy to the information and the support as a girlfriend or whatever I am I have no rights.

She snorts" I am the Commanders wife Nay any information you know I am not going to keep it from you."

" I need to go" I murmur she looks at me perplexed" I can't watch the plan leave there's no way I can."

Jihyo nods un understanding its one thing for me to be here to see her off but watching her plane take off that goes beyond my limit I have tried in the last hour to put myself back to what I used to be the military wife in me is rusty and I know I need to dig deeper I need to be the strong, silent partner and keep her mind as few as I can tis one of the parts I loathed being angry or upset but needing to be happy and cheery when they call.

I learned very quickly how to mask my feelings and all the things that went wrong when Jinyoung was gone I had to be a somewhat less creepy version of a Stepford wife.

I smile as I unlock the door to Robin I sit in the drivers seat and find myself grinning she drove her here so I get to drive her home my eyes close as I inhale deeply it smells of Jeongyeon and if I try hard enough I can almost feel her here.

" Okay Robin.... lets see why she's so protective of you" I say to the car and decide I need therapy.

I look over at the passenger seat and there's a note with a rose I smile and try not to break down in tears.

Sweetheart,

You have my heart and now you have my car take care of both until I get home.