Second Best(2yeon/Najeong version)

What's wrong with Jeongyeon?

Jeongyeon

" I don't think you should have to" I state while glaring back at her she comes here pissed off hits me again and then breaks down" You are a mess and you can't tell me its me you want when he's waiting at home for you."

" He's only there because you won't come get me" she drops to the couch.

" Do you hear yourself? You need to give yourself some damn time I need time too" I explain.

She doesn't see how this alters everything Jinyoung being alive makes me the third party I am not Emma's father; I'd be the one that stole her mom from her dad besides the fact that it makes every family gathering the most awkward thing there could possibly be.

" This is impossible for all of us" her body almost goes limp" He's dealing with coming home after god knows what happened you are not wanting to break some code with him and I am torn in the middle" she wraps her arms around her stomach and drops her head.

" Nay" I say and tilt her head with my fingers" If we truly love each other not time another man or distance will keep us apart do you trust that enough?"

There's so much at stake and while I want to be a selfish asshole I can't my loyalty has nothing to do with what I said to Jinyoung truth be told I couldn't give a fuck less what he wants me to do he lost her but on my way home I realized she lost herself too I don't doubt she lives me I don't think she doubts it either but we need a minute we both have to figure out the best way to handle it and I can't be the one to tell her what to do I leave for deployment in two weeks and there's talk about leaving a week earlier the deployment gives us the time and space to work through it all and really see is what we have is strong.

" I know I love you I trust that right now all I have in my heart is you."

" I think we need to take my deployment as a break" I utter the words and instantly wish I could take them back.

The last thing I want is a break from her but its the only choice we have I won't put her through trying to sort things out with him while I am deployed I don't want to worry about what she's doing while I am gone I need to focus on my men and keeping myself safe this type of shit is what gets guys killed.

Her face falls and I see the pain spark in her eyes I hate hurting her" I seriously can't believe this."

I take her hand in mine and savor the feel of her skin beneath my fingers" I love you Nayeon more than I should but I can't have this shit hanging between us when I go we won't be able to talk a lot when I am gone and I already knew I would go batshit crazy when I leave but now...." I trail off.

Her eyes pierce through me and I see how hard this is for her" Can I write you? Can I see you before you go?"

Every part of me disintegrates with her questions.

I hope to god there's a way we can find a way back through this because if I lose her for good I don't know I'll ever go through this shit again there's a part of me that always wondered if he was actually alive who she'd choose and if we can stand the test this is the time to prove it.

" You don't get it I don't want to be away from you I don't want to do this but I think we have to I need to focus when I am away and imagining Jinyoung moving in on you will get me killed do you understand?"

" Please don't say stuff like that he's not moving in on me and nothing will happen to you."

I bring her against me and close my eyes if only it were so simple if I were Jinyoung I would fight to the death which is exactly what he'll do Jisoo isn't who he wants to be with its Nay who happens to be who I want as well I won't ruin myself in the process though if she wants to be with him I won't stand in her way because he had her first even if it kills me.

" Nothing is guaranteed sweetheart know that each moment I am away from you, you'll be in my mind there won't be a moment that you won't be what I am thinking of."

We recline back in the couch then she wraps her arm around my torso" I don't want you to go."

I sigh " I know but maybe this is what we need."

" No its not what we need but its what we have I am going to ache for you every day you are gone I am going to wish you were here so I could snuggle into your side and remind you why you should love me."

I pull her closer and rub the side of her arm" Loving you was never the issue its keeping you when you are not mine to have."

She looks at me as a tear falls" I think I was always yours to have I am just hoping you'll see that soon."

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