Second Best(2yeon/Najeong version)

FILA

Jeongyeon

My house is eerily quiet and I fight the urge to go back to her, I sat in my car for an hour after Jihyo showed up fought with myself to knock on the door but instead I went home sitting there wishing I hadn't pushed her to come tonight. Selfishly I'd wanted to force her to be with me outside of the walls of her home to go public.

After two hours of staring at the walls, I need to see her and make sure she's okay. The way I left wasn't exactly how I'd planned for the night to end. I wanted to fuck every memory out of her mind show her that he's a prick for ever making her feel like this but I don't want it to be because of him. When I take her for the first time it'll be because she's ready but I had to use every ounce of restraint I had to walk away.

What a mess this whole damn situation is... I can't really bash Jinyoung because he was my best friend btu I want to bash him because he's a fool. I can't push Nayeon to be with me because the guilt of falling in love with my best friends wife overwhelms me but I want her so bad I can barely breath.

I open the door with the key under the plant. I make a mental note to have her change that, she's asking for something bad to happen.

First I see the half empty bottle of Jack on the living room table, I shouldn't have fucking left her there was no way in hell I was going to sleep with her tonight not that I don't fall asleep thinking about it every damn night because she's the real deal. The girl you bring home to your mother because you want to spend every day with her. She's not the girl you fuck the night she finds out her husband slept around.

Anger boils inside because he's a prick. The Jinyoung I thought I knew wasn't so selfish, I can't understand how he could cheat on Nay. She's beautiful, smart, funny and loving, he was so willing to throw it all away for someone like her? Thank God I never touched that slut.

I check on Emma and see her sound asleep in her crib, I love this little girl. I mean she's freaking adorable other than the diaper thing if she could use the toilet we'd be golden.

Slowly I creep open Nayeon's door unsure of what I am going to find but I need to see her. She's asleep on her side facing me but doesn't stir her hair falls in her face and she looks perfect. I want to wake her and pull her into my arms, hold her close but I refuse to do anything tonight. I look over and see another person on the other side of the bed.

Immediately I want to punch something.

How the fuck can she have someone else in her bed?

Then I see the dark brown hair pulled up and realize its Jihyo. She must have stayed.

I head downstairs and look over at the mantel where the flag sits, I am conflicted and angry" Why man? Why would you do it? After everything that you said about you guys who fuck around on their wives" I speak quietly but I am pissed off" And fucking Jisoo?" I only met her once but she was more than willing to do whatever I wanted after one night. Hell, she would have blown me in the car if I asked her to, it makes no sense. You trade up not slum it.

I sit on the couch and lean my head back, I am drained, pissed and a slew of other feelings I'd rather not think about.

The bottle of Jack sits there and I grab it, pulling a long gulp down. I close my eyes and wait for some brilliant idea to strike me on how to handle all this shit. She's going to pull back, I can feel it. I pushed her away when she threw herself at me but I want her to be ready when we take the next step because after that..... there's no going back.

I relax and my mind goes blank.

Suddenly I hear footsteps, I jump up disoriented and realize I fell asleep on her couch.

Shit.

I look over and see Jihyo coming down the steps, she stops and her hand grips her throat until she registers who I am.

" You are here?" she asks with a knowing look.

" I came by late to check on her but....." I feel stupid. I should have left after I saw they were okay.

Jihyo steps toward and puts her hand on my arm" You really do care about her don't you?"

I let out a deep sigh" I think that's pretty obvious."

" Do you love her?" She pulls no punches.

" I cared for her all those years we were friends but I am falling in love with her" I admit for the first time to anyone including myself.

She nods and looks at the bottle of Jack" She's going to be hurting for a while but don't give up on her. I see things in her that you have brought out her heart will heal but you'll have to decide how much shit you are willing to put up with in the meantime."

We both sit on the couch and I look at the clock. Its 6 A.M. and its way too early to be thinking about this" I should get going.

" For what its worth" she puts her hand on my forearm" I don't think Nayeon's willing to see the issues she and Jinyoung were having. In her mind their life was wonderful but getting ready to have a baby had her rose colored glasses firmly in place. When you are a military wife you choose to see things in a certain way its easier than dealing with your brooding asses when you go through another shift in attitude" her face falls and she looks away.

" I can't compete with him."

She looks back and her eyes soften" I don't think you have to that's what I am saying give her a few days and let her grieve the loss of the real husband she had. She's been mourning an idea.... which I understand."

" I can't feel like I am second best to him."

" I understand that. I think in a day or two she'll come to terms with it all. If you love her, you are going to have to realize this is like losing him all over again. The past slapped her pretty hard and then kicked her a few times" she sighs and looks away" I also don't think you were even number two, once she allowed her heart to let you in, you have been number one even when you weren't."

" That makes no sense but I am exhausted and need some fucking sleep plus I don't want her to see me here."

" you are good person, I like you" Jihyo says and we both stand.

" Thanks, I think" I grab my keys and head out the door careful not to make any noise.

I look at her window and decide I need to let her come to me, I can't keep pushing her and I fear I'll push her away. I love her and that scares the ever living shit out of me. She needs to decide if its me she wants, I sure as hell won't be the second best.

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