Second Best(2yeon/Najeong version)

First Day Back at Work

Nayeon

" Her food is labeled and I wrote down all the times she needs to eat" I instruct the nanny I hired. She's a friend of Jihyo's and came highly recommended.

" We'll be just fine" Dahyun bounces Emma on her lap as she giggles.

" Okay I am sure I'll call only around a hundred times"

Dahyun smiles reassuringly" I expect no less. First days are scary but Emma and I have a busy day of fun planned."

I secretly love that she's paying more attention to Emma than me and my neurotic-ness. First day working at Wang Security and I no longer think this is a good idea. Leaving Emma and then stepping foot in the building where Jinyoung worked is daunting. I thought maybe I could feel closer to him now I am not so sure if this is the right move.

" I'll have my phone on me and the number to the office is on the paper by the fridge" I am clearly stalling. I don't know how to spend the entire day away form Emma.

Dahyun brings Emma over to me.

" It'll be fine. If we need you I'll call, I promise."

Nodding and drawing a deep breath I kiss my daughter and turn to head to work.

I can do this.

Once I reach my car I notice the note and flower on the windshield. I open the note and my lip turns up.

Hey Nay,

Sorry I have been MIA bit I am back at work and my schedule is jacked up. Have a good first day be sure to give the guys hell.

Jeongyeon.

Sitting in the car I try to wipe the smile off my face but I can't help it. Its the sweetest most thoughtful thing anyone's done for me in months.

Starting the car the phone connects to the Bluetooth and I decide to call her.

" Hey" She answers on the first ring.

" Hi" I say still smiling.

" I got your card and flower, thank you."

" I was jogging and wanted to let you know I didn't forget about you. I have been busy getting checked in and caught up to speed" Jeongyeon's voice is thick and restrained there's a part of me that doesn't fully believe her.

" Right no its fine. I have been busy too" I lie.

Jeongyeon chuckles" I got a call on Jinyoung's quad if you are still wanting to sell it."

Another part of Jinyoung that I'll lose.

" Sure."

" Nay?" Jeongyeon utters my name reluctantly.

" Yeah?"

She pauses and clears her throat" How's Emma?"

That wasn't what I was expecting based on the tome of her voice. Not that I had any idea what she was going to say but Emma isn't a touchy subject.

" Good she's with the nanny and I am freaking out" I laugh.

" I am sure she'll be fine but its the first time I am leaving her" I turn into the parking lot of Wang Security Forces and nerves begin to stir.

Its Mark and Jackson but still. I am worried that being in there will make his loss even more prominent.... not that it can be any more apparent. He's dead. I am alone and a single mother.

" You okay?" Jeongyeon asks and I realize I have been silent.

With my eyes closed I shake my head, Am I okay? I don't remember the last time I felt okay.