Second Best(2yeon/Najeong version)

Saying Goodbye

Jeongyeon

I am a goddamn Navy SEAL I have been to war and seen some awful shit I have battled through things most people can only imagine yet here I stand like a little bitch hesitating to open that door.

This is the woman who fucking raised me she gave me everything taught me how to treat a woman slapped me around when I did it wrong I never really thought about what it would be like to lose a parent they are still young and I am not ready to lose her.

" Jeongyeon" Nayeon encourages her think arms stay wrapped around me as if she's holding me together and right now she is I look at her and wait for some sort of courage to arrive but its there in her eyes her strength and love are there in her face even with all the crap that's come between us she's been strong.

I nod and open the door she lies there with tubes and monitors everywhere the steady beeping tells me that she's alive but only thanks to the machines a white sheet is draped over her keeping her warn but everything around me is ice cold.

I step toward her slowly her chest rises and falls but there's no life there all I can pray for is that she doesn't feel any pain.

" Hi Mom" I say as I reach her bedside" I got here as soon as I could its a long story but you know how it goes" I try to stay strong but this is my mother the woman who apparently did diapers and didn't rip the tabs she's the one who wiped my knee and made me a cape when I needed to be Superman she is the strongest woman in the world she had kids buried one raised another and I never saw her break down and lose it I swear she could run laps around the SEALs and put us all to shame.

I failed her I wasn't here to protect her.

" Please wake up Mom I don't know that there's any chance but I am begging you please if you can... do it now I am sorry.... for so many things I don't know how to say goodbye to you like this" I need to take a second because I am going to lose it.

Nayeon rubs her fingers down my arm and I close my eyes" Hi Mrs. Yoo we met once but I am Nayeon."

The woman of my dreams stands here talking to my mother while I try to keep it together she gives me the out so I don't feel so weak.

" I remember you loved to bake I wish I had the chance to learn from you since I literally am the worst" Nayeon smiles and releases my hand before I can grab it back she grips my mother's" Thank you for giving Jeongyeon life thank you for raising her to be the person she is I'll be eternally grateful to you for the joy she's brought into my life" Nayeon looks over at me with tears streaming down her face" she loves me more than I deserve she loves my daughter and she's given me more than she'll even understand" she turns back and I wipe my eyes" I can only hope to raise my children to be like the person you have raised she really is the best person I have ever knows and I attribute that to you so thank you."

She leans down and kisses my mothers cheek a woman she's only met once then she whispers in her ear and squeezes her hand once more.

That's my undoing.

I fall to my knees and they hit the cold tie my head falls on the side of the bed and I grip my mothers leg" Haven't we lost enough? Hasn't my family suffered enough?" I mutter aloud.

We grew up with strict parents mom stayed home but I think she worked harder than my father he got to go to work and come home after Mom had the entire house cleaned and food on the table Dad is a lawyer and worked his ass off to put me and Krissy in private school he showed me that hard work was for the family and when you want something you don't slack off you push harder and make your own destiny so why can't I work to make her better?

" Talk to her Jeongyeon" Nayeon encourages while I keep my head bowed I can't let her see me like this" Tell her what you want to let her know she loves you" her soft voice calms me and I try to hold it but its all too fucking much everything crashes around me and I remember my sister I remember her telling me the same thing she would always tell me that mom loved me so I could tell her the truth.

" I am so sorry Mom! I am so fucking sorry! I haven't seen you in a long time and I didn't say goodbye to you" I break apart as Nayeon's hand rubs my back" I lied to you and I didn't tell you all the things that you should have heard I didn't tell you about how much I wished it were me and not Krissy I didn't tell you about how much you mean to me I should have always told you the truth like how I really did put gum in Krissy's hair on Easter or how I broke your rules about sneaking girls in the house I took your car that day and then told you it was Krissy I am sorry I lied! I failed you."

" Shh" Nayeon runs her fingers through my hair as I sob crying at my mothers bedside" Its okay trust me she's not upset or mad she loves you Jeongyeon and she knew it was you, you didn't lie she knows."

I pull and look at her as we both cry for the pain that surrounds us there's been so much we have dealt with but I need Nayeon by my side I only wish my mom could have seen how special she is that she could have held our children and they would know her love she would have doted on them baked cookies spoiled them until they never wanted to come home to us she would have been the best grandmother our children ever knew.

" Mom I want you to meet Nayeon officially I told you how I felt a few months ago and you said to follow my heart she's my heart" I look at Nayeon with her glossy eyes and then I stand I walk and pull a chair over and point to it.

She shakes her head and sits.

" Anyway I wanted you to be the first yo know we are having a baby" Nayeon grips my hand God I love this woman" We are going to have a kid and I am going to marry her she doesn't know that yet but I am, I am going to love her and be the person you told me to be I'll give her the world because she deserves it I'll make you proud."

I hear Nayeon sniff and she lets her tear fall I get down on one knee in front of her I didn't plan this I don't have a ring but I have my heart and she already owns it.

" Im Nayeon I love you more than anyone could love another my world only makes sense since you have come into it I want to marry you, love you, adore you give you children and anything else you want I'll provide for you and never take you for granted I know what life is like without you and I only want to live in a world with you by my side when I am gone my heart will remain with you will you allow me the honor to love you form now until the end of time?"

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