Second Best(2yeon/Najeong version)

Buddy Talk

Jeongyeon

" Have you lost your fucking mind?" Bambam stands at my truck giving me shit about going out with Nayeon tonight.

" Park Nayeon? As in your best friends wife?"

" Fuck off, Its not like you think."

He shakes his head and claps me on the shoulder" You are going on a date with Jinyoung's wife. Let me know where I am missing something because it seems crystal clear to me."

I shrug him off. He has no room to talk since he was screwing one of our buddy's wives but apparently he has short term memory loss " Maybe we should talk to Bueno about missing something, You seemed to be awfully confused when you slipped your dick there."

" I was drunk" he steps back and shakes his head.

I am not going to sit back and let him give me shit. I do that enough myself. I don't want to be that guy the one who fucks their boys wife. Shit, up until the last month I never even looked at Nayeon that way. Its not like I was chasing her skirt when he was alive. We are friends and it fucking happened.

" Whatever man, I am just saying don't give me shit. I am not doing anything wrong. We are friends and I ma taking her out so she has a night away for once its been nine months since he died."

" Did you fuck her?"

I step forward and ball my fists" Watch your fucking mouth" First of all, its none of his damn business. Second of all, if that happens I don't plan on telling him" If and when we do.... it sure as shit won't be fucking."

Some of the team guys are worse than a bunch of women. I'll have to listen to all their opinions and unsolicited advice. I don't want to hear how either they agree or don't its no tup to them as far as I know I'll show up tonight and she'll tell me to fuck off- which is quite possible.

Bambam shakes his head" Be careful man that's all I am saying."

" I am always careful."

" yeah well this time you are playing with fire its not just some girl, its his girl and his kid."

" I am going to be kinda fucking obvious here, man. He's dead I am not doing anything to tarnish his memory or life. He was my best friend. I would have gladly been in that Humvee when it was hit. I would have traded places with him in a heart beat. Nayeon and I are friends and there's something there so I am not doing anything he would disapprove of" I explain and he nods.

" I know you are not like that but I wouldn't want my wife to marry another SEAL."

" You'd have to find someone dumb enough o marry you first before you need to worry about that" I try to diffuse the situation. I get that Bambam thinks he's helping but he doesn't see it. He only sees what he wants right now.

" This would be true and I'd have to give up one night stands, I am good" he shakes my hand and laughs" I am going to the gym, I'll talk to you later."

"See you later."

Tonight is going to be the first time I have seen her since we kissed, I tried to give her the lead let her text me first. I swear I lost my dick and grew a pussy I am doing the damn three day shit ridiculous. I want to slap myself or put my own man card btu she's Nayeon, she's got a kid and she's not some girl. I have known her forever, I was at her wedding for Christ sake, I can't jump the gun and go all caveman on her. She needs to feel in control.

I get home and make sure everything is set. When I called Jihyo to have her watch Emma she gave me 'advice' on what to do tonight not that I had a brilliant plan but apparently Jihyo wasn't impressed at all so she provided me with the restaurant and where to take her after dinner.

Sixty seconds seem to take forever, the clock is broken because I swear its not moving. Fuck it, I am going over now. I'll annoy her until our reservation.

I grab my coat and head out the door.

The ten minute drive gets me a chance to talk myself out of embarrassing myself. Even though we have been friends for years this is definitely something else. I have seen her in dresses, I have seen her in bikini but this is different.

I park outside her house and open the glove box to grab the gift I got her and the letter from Jinyoung falls out. Fuck, I forgot about that.

Here I sit outside his house to pick up his wife for a date and I haven't even read what he wanted me to know. I am a fucking douchebag, I stuff the letter in my console. Tonight I want to be with her. I don't want his ghost haunting me and I already have enough guilty about this date.

I think about Bambam said and how I am stupid, Partially I am. She's a widow, a single mom and trying to put the pieces of her life back together btu there's something there. She draws me in and I don't even realize its happening. She makes me wan to be a better person.

I went from dreaming about guns to thinking of the way her hair looks when she's tired and it falls in her eyes. The way Emma looks when she's asleep and how much I want to have that at some point. I can't explain it, I don't know if there's even a way to put it into words but she does something and here I sit trying to talk myself into doing something I am not sure I should. If she's never been Jinyoung's wife I would have been at her door already. I would have had her in my bed, in my arms and in my heart but she comes with a warning sign. One I have chose to ignore because I can't, I am weak to her and I don't know why.

But I am going to find out.

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