Second Best(2yeon/Najeong version)

Let Go

Nayeon

" Thanks Jihyo" I say as I place Emma in the porta crib at her house.

I haven't heard from Jeongyeon in two days I have tried to get a hold of her multiple times but she doesn't respond she's starting to worry me.

" No problem I love waking up at 2A.M" she yawns and nudges me.

Jinyoung was asleep on the couch tossing and turning I literally snuck out of my own house since the first night we haven't spoken much there's not much for me to say he tells me repeatedly that he wants to work on us but its two people fighting to have the other let go he wants me to let go of resisting him and I want him to let go" I just need to see her I won't be long."

Jihyo takes me into her arms and holds tight" Go I am sure she needs you."

" I don't know what to say to her" I admit.

" Just talk to her how are things at home?"

Jihyo and I haven't been able to talk except through text messages Jinyoung hasn't left my side except to sleep" I don't know Rocky at best he's on the couch which he's not happy about he keeps saying he's going to prove how much we belong together."

She looks at me with empathy" I know this is hard I can't even imagine what you are feeling but I can say I have seen you with both of them, I know the Nayeon you were with Jinyoung and who you are with Jeongyeon neither was wrong but one was definitely happier. I am here no matter what" Jihyo kisses the side of my cheek and swats my ass" Now, GO."

I turn and head toward the person I am desperate to see.

AS I drive I debate whether I should let her know I am on my way I worry that she won't want to see me the pain in her eyes haunt me the need to see Jeongyeon as she was before all this is my only goal.

Guilt over leaving Jinyoung at home chews at my heart it wraps around and squeezes me tight my chest hurts but I keep heading toward Jeongyeon she's who I need right now I miss her, love her and long to touch her.

I park and check my reflection already hating the dark circles forming under my eyes the red blotchy marks on my skin from all the tears I have shed the acid marks on my skin matching my insides.

I knock twice but she doesn't answer its the middle of the night and I didn't call I shouldn't be surprised regardless swells over me I rest my head against the door hoping to feel some sort of connection to her if she can feel me here she'll open.

But instead the door shoves forward.

" Jeongyeon?" I speak quietly as I enter.

The hinges are broken but look as if someone rigged the door back up what the hell happened? I flip the light on in the living room suddenly unsure if I am in the right place its a mess papers, bottles and shattered glass is everywhere there's a hole in the wall by the television and a bloody towel lying on the floor.

" Jeongyeon?" I call out more loudly but no answer.

When I reach her bedroom I am floored at what I find Jeongyeon is passed out in the bed wearing only her boxers" Oh Jeongyeon" I whisper and move toward her crouching down y her face I gently brush her hair back" I have missed you" she lets out a long slow breath as if she's been holding it" why haven't you called me? I don't want to lose you I feel so alone Jeongyeon" my eyes prick as tear falls she sleeps as I confess my pain" The tension is so thick and I can't breath without you I close my eyes and pretend you are next to me I feel your arms wrap around me but you are not there I wish I could be with you and not feel like I am dying inside we could be away making love holding each other but you are passed out and I am sobbing on the floor how did we get here? How did we go back?" My breathing becomes difficult as I let it all out my fingers rub the side of her face.