Second Best(2yeon/Najeong version)

Run

Jeongyeon

" Fuck!" I yell out and punch the tree. My knuckles scream out in pain.

I pick up my pace and start to run again. I need to work out and be ready for the team. I can't be sitting around and then not to be in peak physical condition btu every damn day I am at her house. I can't stay away or stop myself from checking on her. Its like a drug so I run.... I run and try to stop my mind from drifting to her and Emma. I think about the way she laughs how her smile lights up the room and how much I like being the one to put it there. This shit needs to stop.

The music blares in my ears as I sprint. I count and breath, focusing only on that. I can't think about her dark hair. I won't worry about whether she's read the letter. I refuse to worry about whether she remembered to call the mortgage company. Because I am not her fucking anything. I am the dickhead who won't leave her alone because of a promise. At least that's what I keep telling myself. I am nothing to her and I can never be. I shouldn't even be thinking about this.

I run faster and stop to do some push-ups. I'll show her fat and old.

My phone rings and its a California number.

" Hello?"

" Dreamboat its Jackson."

" Hey Muffin, What's up?" I ask as I try to catch my breath. I have met Jackson a bunch of times. Jinyoung worked for him when he left the Navy and our teams were both deployed together at the same time to Africa. We weren't really close but drank together a few times.

" Not much, wanted to check on Nayeon and see if she needs anything."

Nayeon told me about how he took Jinyoung's death hard. He felt like he was responsible. He got himself shot when he went over to investigate and bring Jinyoung's remains home. Not that there were many remains left.

" She's putting on a good show. She's stubborn as all hell but finally taking care of some things."

He sighs and I wonder what he was expecting. Its only been about seven months since he died. No one would be ready for much more than she is.

" She starts working for me this week. I wanted to make sure everything is okay."

I forgot about that. Shit.

" Yeah I am sure she'll be good. My leave is over this week and who knows what the deployment schedule is like."

" Ahh I heard, Four huh?"

" Yeah man" I lean against the tree since this is going to be another few minutes.

" How's Cali?"

He laughs and pauses " I am adjusting."

" She worth it?"

" You have no idea."

" Thank god" I say.

This is no life for a woman. The home-again-then-gone-again-life. How the hell any of these guys are dumb enough to marry someone I'll never know' Its unfair and I don't need anyone clouding my judgement when I am on a mission.

Jackson laughs as if he knows something I don't.

" One day, One day everything you thought you'll forget- for her."

My mind flashes to Nayeon and Emma. The grin comes without any thought. Fuck. I am not supposed to feel anything for her. Goddammit. This isn't allowed.

" or not."

I push it down because I am sure its not anything.

" One day" Jackson repeats.