Second Best(2yeon/Najeong version)

Respecting the Death

Nayeon

" Okay you ready?" Jeongyeon asks as she has me blindfolded for our next part of the date. I focus on everything around me. I can smell hay or maybe its just that clean open air..... I think. I can't place it but there's no noise at all. Its completely quiet, I breath in again and grass and flowers register.

" Where are we?"

I feel her behind me, she stands there not touching me but I can feel the heat of her body. It sheaths me and the anticipation builds. I lean back so I feel her and she chuckles.

Her hands graze my bare arms as the tips of her fingers glide across my skin. My head falls back on her shoulder and my breathing accelerates" When I was stationed here the first time, I found this place its where I came after we kissed. I come here when I need to remember how small I am in this world" Jeongyeon breathes against my neck.

" Sometimes our problems feel so big that we forget how to be grounded and humble" her hands move to my shoulders, the touch is tender and sensual.

She unties the blindfold and my eyes adjust its pitch black except for the stars and moon above us. It illuminates the beauty that I am surrounded by trees line the field and tall grass encompasses the entire area, its untouched except for the small circular patch wee stand in. Jeongyeon's arms wrap around me from behind and I take it in" Wow" I breath" Its so beautiful and yet so desolate."

" You are not alone" she says and I sag into her. My head rests against her shoulder as she holds me tight." No matter what happens you'll have me as a friend or whatever this becomes or doesn't."

" It scares me, I feel like its so soon I miss him still, Jeongyeon" I turn in her arms so I can see her profile" I loved him my whole life and the idea of moving on terrifies me. I don't know that I won't get gun shy and pull away."

Her hands cradle my face" I'll never push you I know he was your world, I saw the love you two shared and I would be full of shit if I said it doesn't scare me. You are supposed to be untouchable and yet here you are in my arms, I don't know if I am lucky or a fucking idiot. I just know that when we are together it feels right, it feels like we are supposed to be."

Even in dark Jeongyeon's eyes shine bright, she won't hurt me, she won't betray me, she'll be patient and kind because that's who she is. My hands tangle in her hair as we stand together. Our foreheads touch and she holds my face as I hold on to this moment, I am at peace in this very second no hurt consumes me, no fear just Jeongyeon. I close my eyes and allow myself to feel and pray.

Please Jinyoung be okay with this. Please understand I'll always love you but Jeongyeon makes it a little bit better, she'll be good to me. So please forgive me.

I lift my head and press my lips against her. her hand cradles my cheek and she holds me as we kiss, I grab her neck and feel the weightlessness from letting a little part of myself go. She kissed me adoringly and cautiously allowing me to lead but still commanding me. I lose myself a little more as I moan when her hand presses against the small of my back.

" Let go" she says against my mouth " Let me take it for you."

Before I can say anything her mouth is on mine again. Our tongues crash against each other as the kiss becomes hungry, she pulls me close so there's no space between us. The low sound resonates through her chest, sending shivers down my spine. Its sexy and before I know it my hands are travelling to her chest. I pull her shirt out and my fingers trail up her shoulder. I want to feel her skin.

Jeongyeon breaks the kiss" Nayeon" my name is both a plea and a request.

" Shh" I instruct her as I unbutton her shirt" I want to feel your heart."